White ppl on this site making it very challenging to not take a hiatus.
Unrelated: reading Blood in My Eye
gender cw : dysphoria, discussion of essentialism
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I don't have a gender , I used to identify as transmasc but don't relate to masculinity so I think agender is right. Don't like being perceived as or being a woman but wouldn't like being a man either. I hate the 'born this way' narrative, we shouldn't have to justify why we're trans. I feel a lot of research about gender being "hardwired" just reinforces bio essentialism under the name of 'acceptance' , it's always agab language and treating sex as an absolute truth. i didn't fully realize everything until recently , like I said earlier trans people don't need justification for why they exist.
EZLN doc : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQaJYlgKp_A
weather is very hot (80 degrees) so idk Abt the shirt layering.
bloom: in a t4t relationship. i feel amazing , she makes me so happy 
doom TW dysphoria
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i hate how I look, not even a big shirt hides everything. want to go on t but it's 30 $ from RxAisle. There's no reason to wait but I'm so scared.
fucking hate libs. ''peaceful protesting'' is fine but the moment violence is used, that's too far. ICE deports people FFS. 
i wrote more lyrics 
idk what to wear most of the time but also don't like what I have. 
rant >
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Going anywhere other than this site online is a mistake. i previously had a Tumblr account but deleted it , then created one yesterday , searching things on Tumblr is aggravating. ppl conflate being pro-palestine w being anti-Semitic. so I delete the app. i tried to use the app only for writing requests but it's just too much for me.
up with trans