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If I’m every “second screening” the second screen is always the tv. The tv is a background noise machine. I have two monitors on my PC is that second screening?

honestly think it’s a dumb concept used to portray people as getting dumber. People have used TV as background noise forever and they used radio before that. If a piece of video media actually demanding your attention you shouldn’t even be able to “second screen”

It’s good to strive to rise above societal programming but don’t be so hard on yourself for succumbing to it! Most people really need outside validation and I don’t think there’s anything inherently wrong with that, it’s very human. We’re social creatures it’s incredibly important to our development as individuals and as a species.

The other thing I’ll say is that often times unhealthy lifestyles can really affect you mentally. I know good food and exercise help my mental state a lot (even though I kinda disdain the concept).

Hope you figure it out! Idk how old you are but I’m almost 30 and just now started feeling comfortable with cooking a few staple meals (plus a handful of minimal effort microwave/toaster oven/air fryer/rice cooker meals).

I had a similar experience with XR pills which is why I don’t take them anymore. Now I have some form of caffeine in the afternoon and that seems to do a good job maintaining the adderall for a few more hours. Caffeine alone barely does anything for me.

Depending on your situation try a week or two off the meds just to see what it’s like. Personally when I was prescribed medication in high school it was because I was consistently falling asleep in class. As such I really thought that was the only value I got out of the meds ( I.e. I didn’t do homework because I thought it was dumb but I needed the meds to stay awake through classes).

Once I got out of school I assumed I didn’t need the meds anymore and for the most part that was fine. I could just stand up during long meetings and I got my work done. It didn’t hurt that I was at a pretty small company and they never confronted me about reading lots of manga during the day (got through one piece that year).

However, though the troubles of my relationship at the time, struggling at a new job, and trying to lead a more fulfilling life doing more than watching tv and playing overwatch most days, I realized that I was constantly fighting myself to do anything more than the basest recreation and life necessities.

I only take 7.5mg of non-XR adderall a day but it makes a huge difference in being able to complete tasks at work and at home.

It’s easy to skirt by with ADHD even in our capitalist-hellscape (I’ve rarely missed major deadlines through stress alone) but to survive the dystopia AND enjoy your life and excel, the medication has proved necessary.

Idk about your psychiatrist but mine is basically a pill vending machine and if it was purely up to him I’d probably had a script for 30mg xr with a 5mg “booster.” My advice is try low doses if you want to avoid the amphetamine feels and once you’ve been on it for a couple months, take a few weeks off and see if you can notice a difference in your executive function.

From my experience, taking high doses of ADHD meds (or taking them in the line format) will still make a person with ADHD “speedy.” However that speediness I still helpful for getting things done (maybe not done well though). I would never recommend getting to that state to study (retention likely very low) but I definitely got a handful of college lab reports done in that state.

But also don’t forget lots of people are just looking for an easy fix for lacking understanding or work ethic. The difference for someone with ADHD is their work ethic isn’t a simple matter of discipline and the line between undisciplined and ADHD is often hard to spot.

“We don’t know what to look for” What utter dogshit. I work in environmental testing and it’s really not hard to blanket test soil samples for pretty much anything we currently recognize as “bad.”

They don’t want to spend the money on testing only to lose more money when they can’t sell their product.

Yeah duhhh the corps will take care of the roads and hospitals because how else will people buy their products if they can’t get anywhere or get sick and die. They have a vested interest. It’s simple economics really.

Yup

Finally I was worried I’d used my constitutional rights with no punishment /s

I find myself needing a connection to what feels like “the real zeitgeist” that I can only get through an app like instagram or TikTok. Reddit is cool sometimes (hexbear is cooler) but it doesn’t feel like a representation of real people I see in the world.

In this post-privacy world you can do your best to protect yourself but everything is taking your data. Not to say you shouldn’t try but I don’t think you should feel shame for enjoying the social connection.

Just watch yourself as you use the app it can go from cheerful connection to depressing alienation real quick (at least for me). I’m currently not using insta but I’m sure I’ll be back eventually once people start bugging me to see their memes.

That couldda named that ice skating twink anything. They knew what they were doing.

Dignified gentleman