large_goblin

So glad you were able to find what works for you. That feeling of experiencing what normal is supposed to be for the first time is indescribable.

This was really fun. Always great to talk to fellow hbears!

This is a difficult time of day for me but please add me to the ping list for future sessions.

Learning languages.

It just never comes together for me.

By this point in the story I thought Dutch was all dried out with no sauce, but the oil baron and Angelo Bronte made me think he just might pull it back.

Sick of looking up how to make desktop Linux behave in a certain way and having to read endless smug comments from Linux nerds asking WHY anyone would want to do such a thing, as if the typical behavior for that specific distro was the standard across Linux in general, nevermind the 98~% of computers running windows/Mac os

It's one of the most ADHD things I've ever read. If a diagnosis is possible I recommend it.

What mine (m1 pro, 16gb ram, has fans) is good at:

• Very low power usage and exceptionally long battery life
• Screen is above and beyond what a laptop needs
• generally fast and can manage cpu-heavy games and video transcoding

What it’s bad at

• ever being able to upgrade
• some functionality requires third-party apps or terminal knowledge
• not all programs have an Apple silicon version and need the translation layer
• virtualization is inconsistent and unpredictable

They’re cool devices. I’ve been a longtime laptop hater but I’m happy with mine. Yes you do need the 16gb ram upgrade that they will rip you off for. Get a pro model if you think you’ll need active cooling, but my fans rarely turn on.

I went unmedicated for 30 years. A few things I found that worked:

• Exercise Having a consistent exercise schedule helps so much with energy and mood management. Keeping myself on a constant energy baseline during the day without constant up/down spikes really alleviated ADHD symptoms in the workplace. I did mostly resistance training with occasional cardio.

• Strict scheduling / using a planner This worked in the last few years but it required a level of emotional maturity and self-belief to utilise properly. You need to believe it is necessary to follow this schedule to the best of your ability but also not put yourself down for getting behind and missing tasks. For a long time I would inevitably fall behind at some point and start hating myself and get stuck in a zero productivity hole.

• Working conditions This is by FAR the hardest to control but it made the most difference. I never fit into a 9-5 unmedicated but I did well at a job where I could do all my work after midnight as long as it was completed in time. I would do what I wanted to during the day and then start getting all my work done from the evening. If you are the opposite and prefer mornings then the other way round might be better but the same overall idea still applies.

I can only do Morrison's and I know they're not everywhere, unless you know a place I can purchase from that doesn't require a UK phone number.

I will DM you about it.

To be clear - I’d be willing to contribute to this. Cash is a no go but I’ve made purchases from Amazon and other US retailers online before so it should be OK.

I have to jump through so many hoops to send cash to US comrades so I can't help with day to day stuff.

However - and you can tell me if I'm out of line here - have you considered creating an amazon wishlist on a burner account and sharing it here? That way you definitely get the specific goods you need without worrying about money management. Stuff like the sleeping bag and clothes you mentioned.