[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 16 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Finished up Detransition, Baby and holy shit is that book heavy. It has such an intimate (in my opinion) understanding of trans women and how we see the world, our communities, and gender, and it really pays off in the text.

Torrey Peters seems to have a gift when it comes to writing scenes that engross you and make you empathize with the characters. The scene at the climax of the story had me emotionally, psychologically, and physically distressed and dysphoric because of how it depicts a certain character grappling with the physicality of our bodies in the middle of a heated moment.

I didn't expect a book about adults in their 30s having a baby to have so many twists and turns, it felt like I was watching a drama at times and I really hope the adaptation eventually comes out and does the book justice.

I want to recommend this book but the list of content warnings ((domestic) violence, transphobia, self harm, sexually explicit passages) probably means I'll only recommend it with the caveat that it's triggering if you're sensitive to the content.

I love me some messy trans women (Maria Griffiths my beloved) and this book really hit the mark. Overall I love this book and it's probably in my top 3 of all time and not just as trans literature.

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 18 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

Got really drunk on saturday and finally came out to my irl friend group chat. Waking up not remembering doing that was "fun". This is also the second time I've gotten way too drunk and came out (first time was almost ten years ago when I came out to them at a party as bisexual)

Would not recommend it.

internalized transphobia relating to ageIn my coming out message I put in my chosen name and for the first two days afterwards, I thought that maybe I wasn't ready to do that.

On analyzing that feeling I'm realizing that it might just be attatched to my internalized shame about coming out at my age and feeling that this whole thing, this whole experience, is a kid/teen/young adult thing. Like thinking about it makes me feel like I'm going to be physically ill. I actually gag when I think about it, out of shame or embarrassment.

I think I need to talk to more older trans people.

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 19 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

They weren't lying, this progesterone really do be making me eepy.

Also my hair is like, ridiculously soft suddenly. Like almost overnight, even my girlfriend noticed it. I'm definitely not imagining things and I haven't changed anything in my hair care. Idk where this came from but I'm very happy about it.

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 18 points 1 year ago

Ill always appreciate your efforts marcie 🙏

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 16 points 2 years ago

banned users need to put a report on at least one feminist theory book in their appeal to be unbanned

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 16 points 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago)

started eating instant noodles that had a rip in the paper top (but the plastic wrap was intact)

thought about botulism and now i'm not hungry anymore blob-no-thoughts

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 18 points 2 years ago

I got a new backpack yesterday and my girlfriend immediately said it was queer coded.

thurston

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 18 points 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago)

My overwatch 14 day suspension is up in 4 days and I finally got a response to my "what did i even say" ticket

spoiler

A Game Master resolved your ticket, and left the following response:

Greetings.

The penalty notification email includes all information that will be shared. Customer support cannot provide additional details of any kind.


okay cool thanks very cool super cool

Guess I can't say frick anymore trans-sad

I'll just continue to get called a pedo for picking sombra and praying the mods ever actually do anything ig shrug-outta-hecks

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 16 points 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago)

I got suspended from ow2 for being toxic trans-sad

I don't say any slurs so it was probably saying fuck too many times in a pointed manner. (I probably deserved it, i ain't gonna lie)

Though part of me thinks I was already being mass reported because i've been playing a lot of sombra this season and also i rock the trans name card.

Guess i'll see if support deigns to tell me what no-no words I said this time (last time they threatened to ban me if I kept asking) (I never found out what I said)

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 20 points 2 years ago

Yeah he's still an asshole

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 20 points 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago)

whining about needles

how the FUCK do i get over my fear of needles for injections.

I've been doing this shit for 4 months at this point and I still cannot do it myself (my girlfriend has injected me every time) and today I cried like a fucking child because i was so frustrated i couldn't do my injection because my anxiety was so high.

I hate this but I don't want to do any other form goddamn it.

Maybe i should switch to subcutaneous from intramuscular but i already have like 5 dozen syringes and filter needles.

God this sucks i feel so stupid

[-] Ambii@hexbear.net 18 points 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago)

kinda weird to think about wanting to internalize some of the positive feminine connotations, roles, and traditions within said culture because i never had the chance to as a kid.

I also never really internalized any of the masculine ones either so there's that i guess

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