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I've been diagnosed with ADHD but I've kind of been jealous of these carefree memes. Like, I wish I could be late for things or forget to show up to something. At least in the way it's portrayed in a "quirky carefree" way.
I definitely have the executive dysfunction and procrastination part. But, if there is some "event" happening at a specific time I literally can't do anything else for the rest of the day ("trip" in the memes case) but prepare or wait for it.
It's been a thing since I was a kid. I remember sitting in my baseball uniform all day before a little league game waiting.
Wondering if it's just my anxiety being stronger than my ADHD for specific social events. Or events that would be embarrassing to miss (missing a bus stop).
It's like my brain knows I'm really bad at being ready for something, can easily forget, so it goes into hyper-focus on it and doesn't let me do anything all day until the event time comes.
I really wish I could just chill out on a bus and occasionally miss my stop. It would be much more enjoyable than spending the whole time counting the stops and checking the gps for a second opinion. Anyone else with ADHD get this? I feel like sometimes the "memes" here are more representative of how people "see" ADHD people and less about how it actually is to live with.
Like, I'll still fuck up. I'll still miss my stop or be late, but I didn't spend all day chasing squirrels. I spent all day thinking about it, unable to do anything else, then met a moment of brief false confidence that kept me distracted long enough to misremember that the appointment was at 11 NOT 1130. Wtf, I looked at it 100 times. I set an alarm. How did I fuck this up again? I gotta somehow explain again why I missed something while spending the whole time leading up to it being completely disabled because I was hyper-focused on not missing it. Normal people don't understand that; so gotta come up with some normie relatable excuse for them that will sound completely fake coming from me.