hello
i'm having a pretty shitty day today. i had enough food in the form of like ~2.5lbs of rice and half a loaf of bread but when i woke up today my bread was completed molded bc of my shitty apartment's HVAC and it was next to my rice. maybe it is just OCD, i deal with it quite severely; but in short i don't trust the rice now either. i kind of was a baby about it and cried/had a panic attack bc that was supposed to be how i fed myself for the foreseeable future and now it's all gone...
i'm broke rn bc i'm currently out of work. im just really sad and angry with the world rn ig, it feels like i did everything right and went to school for a good field like i was supposed to but i'm still just a broke fuck-up. not to wallow in pity but it just feels bad man. i've been just barely scraping by for the past couple of years. i even made a couple of posts in this comm a year back or so that i literally fucking deleted because i was embarrassed of being a broke fuck up. some very kind and gracious people helped me then and i really appreciated it, i feel like a shitty person for deleting those posts in retrospect.
i own a 3d printer with some spare filaments and can do development work... i suppose if anyone is interested in any of those things i can exchange them in return. i don't want to just take from people.
my cashapp is $jwmgregory but i'd definitely be okay with it if like, someone just would be willing to order a pizza or something. just DM me or something if that is the case, i suppose.
thank you for your consideration.
sorry if my post is a bit of a ramble, i'm just really stressed and hungry and it's a little taxing mentally.
EDIT: I apologize for being kind of snivelly yesterday i was very stressed. i woke up today & someone who is very kind sent me 50 dollars which is more than enough to get some food to replace what i had. so if you see this post and are considering sending me anything please move on to a different aid request that is unfulfilled. thank you guys sm it means a lot to me.