mutual_aid

It's weird having to ask random strangers on the internet for help. I just started my 20's pretty recently and don't have any sort of support network irl. Idk ig I'm just really scared rn. the world will crush me up & spit me out and there's nothing I can do about it. It feels hopeless. I don't know what else to do rn while I apply to jobs. how can I be expected to "just go get a job" when that costs money? Merely existing costs money!? It's like the longer I'm in a bad spot, the further in the hole I roll down :(

sorry to briefly rant. I ended up losing my cashiering job at a big corporate store a week or so ago. It was for reasons outside of my own control. My funds dried up so quick. I don't know how I'm gonna pay my rent and not get evicted this month. everyone is acting like it's my fault bc I was supposed to have savings somehow? I made less money every check it felt like, what was I supposed to save?? Anyway. Maybe it's me, and I'm just a dipshit who can't be an adult like everyone else. Regardless. I haven't ate anything other than a bag of microwave popcorn I found in the cabinets of my apartment 3 days ago, and before that I wasn't exactly eating like a king. I feel like if I don't do something soon I'm gonna be in such a worse spot. i would really appreciate if anyone would be able to spot me a few dollars to eat today. it would relieve a world of stress off my shoulders to just have one big meal rn. my cashapp is $jwmgregory, same as my user here. thank you sm to anyone who even reads this. ik that this is very rambly but i'm not of the clearest head rn, sorry for any mistakes and ty for your time.

edit: 2 individuals donated enough for me to eat and i appreciate the help sm. i have my food situation squared away for now. i suppose i won’t take this post down bc i truly can use all the help i can get rn and still am facing a lot of trial and tribulation. but i plan to pay back the 2 people who cashapped me once im in a better spot, and do something else to pay forward the kindness whenever i can. bless & i hope that myself and everyone else can find a better way forwards