DXM planted the seeds and actually directly inclined me towards behaviors or ways of using music and my time under it that i would probably refer to now as parameter automation, modulation and many other sound experiments

Tons of cool old tv shows and books and publications and music. They are astounding

What is a thing that haunts you that is more of a second or other hand memory/mental impression rather than a direct experience or set of conditions you had to work within? Note: different from ghost which is something that was presen and now is absent)

It didnt originate with or become a part of you, it just left an original-less copy of a compass that seeks to influence you in impossible directions/choices derived from an experience/set of conditions by which you were seemingly affected but never actually objectively experienced?

I guess a concrete example like a 911 near-miss anecdote is good or maybe Im way off but feel free to write. Im feeling pensive

How do you get your freak on?

Feels like its gone the way of caves. Cars used to be decliffed from an unfortunately placed banana peel (see Billy Madison)

Not the regular mechanics or rules or anything. Interested in this as an allegory for regular life stuff and coping with uncertainty but being able to thrive in spite of all that