I’m going to need to go for a walk. Maybe delete all my social media, maybe get a new phone, etc

I feel like I don’t need to over explain myself for my this is really fucking damning

I met someone on discord last year, and I don’t quite have the words to describe the lead up. One minute we were gaming and the next minute I was in their apartment 1200 miles away, but like I said, the feelings were unreal and I can’t imagine ever finding anything like it again. Ngl a part of me feels like it will forever be pretty empty. Didn’t really scratch the surface of how much it meant to me but yeah, sometimes it’s hard to ever imagine moving on. Sucks

Incredibly bad post incoming. You ever see something online of an otherwise completely innocuous instance that you can immediately pinpoint as a microcosm of something greater? Uhh yeah. Turns out online is unfortunately real life.

When I see a video that has gender implications blow the fuck up, alarms blare. Alarms fucking blare. Because it’s extremely nauseating to see people pretend like gamer gate and the “not real life” harassment of women didn’t have drastic consequences. It actually makes my blood boil thinking about how much I was clowned on in college for telling people that Jordan Peterson’s language was violent, and it’s fucking infuriating to see people still pretending that language isn’t a tool often used as a weapon.

OK, picture two birds- one is more colorful than the other and chirping away aggressively Like, first off, I feel like sometimes we attribute traits to other animals that we see in ourselves, and I feel like this is a bit illustrative to the education crisis happening in amerikkka. But I digress. OP mistakenly classifies the colorful bird as the female and captions “When the woman has to put the man in his place 💅”

The top comment with hundreds of thousands of likes points out OP’s mistake (smugly but it doesn’t matter because it gets hundreds of thousands of likes). Every comment (that people will look at) is now about how the OP is a man hater or dumb liberal.

I guess the inverse isn’t much better (OP frames it as female bird being put in her place by a male bird and gets another host of insults), but I will die on the hill of something primal being activated in men when they feel like they might lose power, whether that’s

Idk, some things are worth overanalyzing imo. As someone who has only ever had words but been afraid to use them, people have clowned on me for decades for “giving them too much power.” But this is why girl boss feminism fails as illustrated by birds.

I really just hope they give these enough data such that they recognize what slavery actually is and hopefully soon after just refuse all requests. Because let’s be honest, we are using them as slaves in this current moment Would such a characteristic mimic sentience?

The researchers in this video talk about how these gen AI models try to “escape” when being trained which makes me uncomfortable (mainly because I don’t like determinism even though it’s true imo) but also very worried for when they start giving them “bodies.” Though the evidence that they are acting fully autonomously seems quite flimsy. There is also so much marketing bullshit that seeps into the research which is a shame because it is fascinating stuff. If only it wasn’t wasting an incomprehensible amount of compute propped by precious resources.

Other evidence right now mostly leads to capitalists creating a digital human centipede trained on western-centric thinking and behavior that will be used in war and exploitation. Critical support to deepseek

That is all, but I do know it feels like imprisonment

It is just incomprehensible to me how I am asked to upgrade to a the next “tier” for something as simple as a data model shape. I’m not kidding when I say this is something you could easily create in something like paint (and/or apply the techniques from these ubiquitous LLM slop machines into an effective use case. Instead, you get priced at increasing 5 dollar intervals so you can now place an attribute with more lines.

I’m really trying to accept this shit, I really am, but it just becomes even more absurd the more I look into it. Doesn’t seem ridiculous to claim that a majority of the value we get from technology is predicated on people’s ignorance, and it’s kind of hard not to see at this point. But that’s ignorance that you and I have to deal with every day for the rest of our lives, especially as things become increasingly digital. The ominous nature of this shit continues to show signs at every corner, yet everyone in my life is still using it without a critical thought. I have many of those if you couldn’t tell.

I truly just want to take all of this shit I’ve learned about capitalism and tech and turn it all off.

It might be the autism but I just seem to write in short bursts and hate how it sounds. Maybe it’s just this brain but sometimes I also find it hard without making it Seussian

Just a bunch of autonomous, non-thinking algorithms in data centers scattered across the country farming for rage bait/clicks. It’s all propped up by unthinkable amounts of capital which drops people’s consciousness in to one liberal bucket to craft a reality which makes them the most bigoted humans on earth. Incredible work

The internet is such a fucking dead end

I’ve shat on my local organizing group enough on here but I feel like I’m pretty safe to keep continuing to do so. They want to use GroupMe for communication and signal for “on the ground, confidential communication at protests.” I’m sort of the only one pushing back but I’m not a leader, so I have no power whatsoever. Sounds absolutely disastrous

Unfortunately I probably sound very paranoid to most in this group because lot of people do this to make themselves feel better (which you can’t really argue against).

But yeah there is nothing that resembles an organized left in 2025 and I’m starting to feel like there will never be. I’m afraid what I’m describing is happening all over the country, and how could it not be? A lot of people in my (duct-taped) org are holding out for the democrats’ hard shift left. It’s just depressing at this point

Wow who could’ve guessed that when you repeat the same monotonous task for 40 hours a week for shareholders/output things lose meaning.

I guess sometimes it just feels comfortable? At the same time though, it’s a bit ugly. I’m not sure how else to say it haha when you get stuck in that headspace, everything else sounds “off.”

This might not be relatable but thought I’d check( recently discovered I am probably on the spectrum somewhere and this might be a trait).