[-] [email protected] 1 points 5 hours ago

I will keep thinking about it. I feel very uncomfortable asking for/with it when I still look.. :/

[-] [email protected] 10 points 10 hours ago

Going on a multi day trip with friends for the first time tbh and very excited. Just haven't known people like that since becoming an adult. I have the next few days until we leave off too and fuck I haven't felt this excited in a while. I can't think of much else to say about it without ruminating on the past and I'm not rly in a ruminating on the past kinda mood.

some negativityI'm out to them and they still he/him me :/ I know what everyone's suggestion is, to correct them and ask for she/her and my real name... I still dunno though. I don't want to make things weird or uncomfortable.

[-] [email protected] 6 points 11 hours ago

Unless they are going to take me back with them I'd rather the Epstein files.

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No it's not. You use direct ml, it's slower but does work. Last I heard "shark" works? But I haven't looked at it in ages. There are options though.

[-] [email protected] 5 points 16 hours ago

This would work on me (after double checking with a friend)

[-] [email protected] 9 points 23 hours ago

I know what you mean, I thought the same thing.

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But transition is hard, why can't I just be done with it

Unironicly tho.

Are you making fun of other people who are like this or yourself? Because it kinda reads like you're mocking people who struggle with it

[-] [email protected] 9 points 1 day ago

brigading enjoyer here my god.. thank you

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According to two people familiar with the draft, it would eliminate the bedrock scientific finding that greenhouse-gas emissions threaten human life by dangerously warming the planet.


The E.P.A. intends to argue that imposing climate regulations on automakers poses the real harm to human health because it would lead to higher prices and reduced consumer choice, according to the two people familiar with the administration’s plan. They asked to remain anonymous because they weren’t authorized to discuss the draft proposal.

[-] [email protected] 13 points 1 day ago

I want it so much- and so worried I won't find someone.

[-] [email protected] 13 points 1 day ago

Yearned too hard, cried

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I hope you feel better soon cat-trans

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Even without being trans, life is not worth living. Everyone has always told me life would be hard, they're right. Its too hard and not worth it. There's nothing redeeming. Its just suffering. I don't want to suffer another 30 or 40 fucking years.

i don't know why I can't work up the nerve to just do it. i have a method. I've wanted it for years. Why the fuck can't I just do it and get it over with. I guess I keep hoping life will turn around for me, but it won't. I think being trans really seals it for me. I don't think people understand that. People don't seem to understand why killing myself is preferable to this. I don't understand whats so hard to understand. Clearly something about it just hits different for me. The alienation from others, my ruined body, idk. Nothing i say makes anyone understand. How is this a life worth having. Its misery and pain. Its endless. All i can think about right now is shooting myself.


Whatever, if I'm going to make another stupid post like this I should at least make an attempt to explain what exactly is so horrible about being trans. Even without being trans I still have no real interest in sticking it out but it is one of the main tangible things I can point to.

Complete alienation from everyone else. No one understands or sympathizes. Most people support forcing us to suffer like this. How fucking horrible is it to live in a society that wants to mutilate you. Who's people want to refuse you healthcare. People understand the damage, they understand it perfectly fucking well when its trans men on T. People everywhere will look at me like a removed freak, since I don't pass. Even other queer people don't understand. I'm going to lose my family. Good luck getting a job as a removed with no education or qualifications.

My body is destroyed. Destroyed by T, destroyed by depression. I have always hated my voice. I can hardly speak sometimes. It hurts every time I talk. I don't make any other noise. I don't sing, I don't hum, I don't do anything but speak when I need to. Voice training is a special circle of hell and I can't. Between that and my fucking ridiculous height I will never pass. I will always be a freak. I will never be happy with my genitals. Facial hair is awful. I truly lost the plot when ts came in. "oh just shave, lots of women shave, whatever" you don't understand. No one does. I truly don't understand how no one gets it. How no one can get that this is hell.


honestly even without the trans shit I'd still want to die. there's nothing here worth doing this for. its the nail in coffin. its always going to be there, its always going to cause me pain. so much pain. i want it to stop and there's only one way how

self harmWhile I'm venting again may as well say this: I really want to cut myself. I remember what it feels like and I want that again.

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This has always been one of my quirks, even as a young child, and I'm wondering if it might be autism related. I have always saved my money to an unusual degree. When I was maybe 10~ I remember being given money for some fair thing and only getting water the whole day so I could save it. My parents have noticed and commented on it many times, being a "penny pincher" etc many times. I always comparison shop, think about value, agonize over purchases etc. My friends will nag and nag at me to buy a new game they like but if I'm not sure I'll like it and get "enough" time out of it I don't. I'll try and do the math on how many hours and how many times I'll use something. I have always had a lot of money saved up for my age. Even when its not my money I'm spending I'm still incredibly cautious about not wasting it. I've changed my order before to save someone else a few dollars. I check when I'm getting paid probably close to every day. I don't need the money, I have plenty in my checking account and few expenses. I can't tell you why I care so much about it.

I am and have been for a while now, completely freaked out about being able to afford to move out.

I try to play off not caring about money a lot of the time, like when I'm hanging out with someone irl. I guess I don't want them to think us spending time together and spending is an issue for me? Like I can objectively afford it, plus its pretty rare (oof) so I try not to get freaky about it. Plus I enjoy spending time with people far more then it.

Any thoughts/experiences/advice would be appreciated! Low key I'm going on a trip with some friends and idk how much its going to end up costing me and its got me feeling all kinds of ways. It shouldn't be more then one paycheck though. Not necessarily posting because of that but thought it was worth a mention.

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The law approved late Wednesday applies to those younger than 21 and calls for 15 years in prison for any violators, as well as a $50,000 penalty and the revocation of all licenses and permits of medical staff.

“Minors, having not yet reached the necessary emotional, cognitive, and physical maturity, are particularly vulnerable to making decisions that can have irreversible consequences,” the law reads. “Therefore, it is the State’s duty to ensure their comprehensive well-being.”

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Platinum Edition Contents:Civilization VI – Vikings Scenario Pack

Civilization VI – Poland Civilization & Scenario Pack

Civilization VI – Australia Civilization & Scenario Pack

Civilization VI – Persia and Macedon Civilization & Scenario Pack

Civilization VI – Nubia Civilization & Scenario Pack

Civilization VI – Khmer and Indonesia Civilization & Scenario Pack

Civilization VI: Rise and Fall expansion

Civilization VI: Gathering Storm expansion

I don't usually post free epic games but this one is worth a grab imo- haven't played the DLC but I do love civ. And apparently 7 is in a bad state right now so even more of a good pick up mario-thumbs-up

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The Litani River National Authority said inflows to Lake Qaraoun during this year's wet season did not exceed 45 million cubic metres, a fraction of the 350 million cubic metres annual average.


"I have never seen such drought or scarcity of rain as this year," said Safa Issa. "We used to get snow up to a metre high. Now, it's been 10 years since we've seen any."

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before my egg cracked. I was already unable to do basic things, to care for myself, to hit normal milestones. Now it is truly unbearable. I hate being trans. I hate having to transition, I hate feeling dysphoric. I hate society. I already hated society but its so evil. I will never have a life I am happy with. Not in this society, not with this body, or this voice.

I can't cope. I can't stop thinking about it. Being trans has ruined me. It hurts so badly. Hearing my voice, seeing myself in the mirror or looking down. Telling people. Being misgendered. Knowing what I look like. I can't do it. I can't deal with all of the things I need to. Its too hard and too painful.

There's not a light and the end of the tunnel. There's not a thing I need that will fix this.

People are sick of me. All I do is whine about how shit life is and how much I need to kill myself. Pretty much the only thing on my mind. I'm sick of me too. I'm sick of this life. There's not an answer but killing myself. That's the only way to escape this hell.

I can't deal with being trans. My body, voice, or society. I've known for a long time I was going to kill myself but I guess this is why. Its nice to have closure in a way, of understanding why my life fell apart before it even really began. I'm very angry and disappointed. Society has smothered me to death and forces me to finish the job.

I can't do this. I never really could. I never functioned normally, not since puberty anyway.

People in the mega have told me I'm grieving at it will get better. It hasn't. It hasn't gotten better one bit. I'm out to all my friends. Does nothing.

I'm broken. I can't find my way through life. I don't like life anyway. I just can't quite get over the hump to die yet for whatever stupid reason.

Thanks for listening to my stupid whining. For whatever reason this is all I have on my mind and all that's important to me.

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It's so fucking over, literally just changing one word and we're all criminals. Already so bad for kids. Dooming but the dooming is fully rooted in reality. This case is so bad.

Everything is so bad tbh.

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The drm claims are just funny to me, with how easy steam drm and achievements are to emulate. The tools he talks about in the video are, as mentioned, incredibly easy to use. What's really funny to me is the code review, starts at 10:45~. Look at this fucking array:

Who the fuck writes this? I'm dying its so funny. He claims to have 23 years experience. He goes over a lot more but this array is peak.

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