Oh God, this is such a manic comment. Normally I delete posts like this when I write them, but honestly I kinda want someone to see what my mania looks like writing wise. It's uh, very interesting I guess is a way to write it. IDK , some of my people think it's amazing others know exactly what it is and hate it. The lesson here is that I could have been the new Jim Jones if I wanted to. The better you know me, the know you know how true that is, I didn't come up with that comparison myself it was my old drug abuse councilor

Well, she's dating me. Sourcing cypro isn't the problem, I can still get literally any drug I want (recreational or otherwise) right now and I know this to be true. I've had dealer's choice of everything for years, even after I sobered the fuck up. There's nothing stopping me from purchasing any drug you can think of that's available in America. I provided my Mom her bougie ass birth control she gets only because she's married to a vice president in one of America's biggest companies. I'm able to get shit that even rich insurance companies in America can't get for their patients.

If I think I can convince her to try it, I'll source it and that's no big deal. But that's all contingent on getting her to actually try it and see what she thinks, if I can't get her willing to try it ordering it in will do no good. And uh, I'll just say it isn't easy to convince her to take anything that isn't prescribed by a doctor. She won't even take Ibuprofen when I offer it sometimes, we're not talking about normal drug avoidance I mean she won't even take basic OTC stuff. I'll be like "Gurl you've had a headache for 2 weeks straight" and she'll be like "Yeah but Advil (I actually only carry Naproxen, its always actual Advil) will make my tummy hurt :(" and then I have to fight the hood pharmacist inside of Leyla from just dropping an Advil in her mouth when she sleeps. Idk, I used to literally drug people with kratom to get them through withdrawal from fentanyl, I don't regret anything I did back then because every one of those people is still alive, but I've definitely done some morally questionable shit in this area for the right reason

Idk, maybe some of y'all don't remember but it was about 2 years ago I was posting on here asking about advice for providing people DIY HRT. I was creating sublingual Estrodial drops for monotherapy for people around me up until I went to rehab. I'd pay rent, people's med shipments, then spend the rest on alcohol to keep from withdrawals. I was also shipping in extras of everybody's meds because there was some fuckery going on with insurance at the time. I don't fully remember the context, but even my mom with bougie insurance was expecting to lose it. There's a reason I have such a great reputation in my city despite spending a very long time in the city as a junkie.

Sorry, I'm coming off my TCA/Main sleep med, I'm pretty manic and just shooting shit.i should have been asleep 4 hours ago but it just didn't work.