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Hi girlies!
I'd like to share my experience with libido changes and HRT and I'd really like to hear if anyone else has experienced anything similar...
So, to start off, my HRT regimen in the beginning was 50mg of CPA daily (oof) and 4mg of oral E (I did sublingual, of course). It didn't take long at all, and after my second CPA pill, my libido disappeared completely. I had no motivation for sex, masturbation or anything like that. If my bf wanted sex, I obliged, but just to please him, really. I never really stopped using it (ew), because I need it for SRS, but it wasn't very enjoyable. This phase lasted a while...
I remember about 3 months in, I had switched to injections. My libido was weak, but it did exist. My orgasms were alright I suppose. Worse than pre-HRT, weak and less satisfying. Sex with my bf was barely enjoyable, it actually just kinda hurt. 3 months was when my endo gave me prog, 200mg daily. I decided to try rectal.
And prog was...weird. It pretty consistently gave me thoughts about pregnancy. Not much of a libido boost, but a little bit...maybe? Sex was a little more enjoyable. I started wishing my bf could put a baby in me...
My orgasms got stronger too. Just a bit, but they were kinda similar to pre-HRT. It was just a weird hormone overall.
Clearly, prog was doing something. A very subtle something, but not nothing. It wasn't really enough for me to justify taking it rectally (inconvenient), so I started taking it orally...which quickly ended with me eating my entire supply. It did help with my anxiety temporarily tho.
This happened once more.
Prog prescription -> take it rectally -> it's doing something? -> rectally sucks anyway -> eat it all
Months 4-5 tho...my orgasms changed again, even without the prog. They got stronger and shakier, which was a good thing. During this time, I also switched to 25mg CPA. I started enjoying sex a tiny bit more...but I never really looked forward to it. The prep was brutal and tiring and I just felt overall like it wasn't worth it. I much prefered masturbation with a magic wand during this time, instead of all the prep for sex.
Month 6. I got prescribed prog again. This time I decided to avoid oral altogether, whatever may happen. And I also got a dose increase with my endo, 200mg daily to 400mg daily. It's been 7 days since starting 400mg rectally every night. And this may be completely placebo...
But sex just feels...better than it did before prog, every time I have sex now?
The experience is fuller and richer, more sensational. Everything feels right. I feel a much stronger emotional connection to my boyfriend. Without prog, I swear, something was missing from the experience. But now...I feel like I can barely get enough. I actually look forward to it. I beg for it. I'm so mentally aroused all the time...all I can think about is my bf coming home and...you know 😆
The mental aspect is strange. My body does react, my nipples get hard and I think I get flushed, but it reacts much less than pre-HRT. Most of it is going on in my head and I feel like it's more emotional. Pre-HRT, it was much more physical. I actually prefer it this way.
This might be just E alone. I think that, because in my City girl post, I described an intense NSFW moment. And I did enjoy that, a lot. I think it was because I was in the right headspace, after a successful day. Other times, sex wasn't that great. But with prog? Every time is amazing...every round is its own little experience and I love it.
My most recent blood test showed:
- Estradiol: 1350pmol/L at trough (367 pg/ml)
- Progesterone: 556nmol/L (174 ng/ml)
- Testosterone: 0.37nmol/L (10ng/dl)
This is already way too long and I don't even know if I'm making any sense, but what I'm trying to say is that I really enjoy the sexual changes of HRT. Placebo or not...I believe in prog. This is working for me.
I'd be interested in hearing other girls' experiences. I can ramble about my love life all day, but I'm curious about other people's journeys. So please, if you feel comfortable, do share ❤️
good to hear its going well!
Been on HRT for 10 weeks / 2.5 months
For me, my libido was probably average before HRT? Not sure, I wasn't exactly excited for sex, and masturbated mostly because the evil hormones told me too. I think this was from relationship problems at the time and general stress I think. I did have a lot of issues around sex probs because of dysphoria aswell.
HRT def nuked the libido. Doing maintenance when I have zero libido was so so weird. This was when I was on 4mg E. Jumped on 6mg E a month ago and that has put some libido back into me. It does feel a little different. Mostly gives me the desire to hug someone!? Idk. Its weird. I guess im just lonely lmao.
One note is the orgasms haven't really changed lol. They were always pretty boring on T anyway unless i worked on it for ages lmaoo
For now I don't care much about where my libido is at. Yes, I would like to come back at some point, absolutely. But by no means am I looking for a relationship atm. I mostly need more friends who understand, hence why, if my anxiety lets me, will go to a queer bar soonish.
Anyway, little ramble over lol
I get that 🫂
The evil hormones sucked, but we're on the right track now, sister 🩷
Yesss, the desire for physical closeness! It's so nice tho. I enjoy it a lot. Not weird at all!
Please don't be lonely. I'm sure you'll find the right person one day. This is selfish, arrogant and also cliché, but if I could do it...I believe anyone can
I feel you 🥺
Umm. We both need more friends 👉👈
do you have Matrix by any chance? 😅
Girl, ramble away, absolutely nothing wrong with that. Some of us already do (I'm guilty, lol)
I just wanted to say, at 2.5 months, you're still early. Your orgasms and libido will definitely change with more time on HRT. And hopefully, your dysphoria fucks off...
I'm rooting for you girlie ♥️
thank you! rooting for you too!
i do sort of. its @eeepy_cat:matrix.org if u want to add
if you're on matrix, you should join the blahaj.zone/196 space over at #196-Blahaj:chat.blahaj.zone :3
I am on Matrix! I'll check the 196 space out, thanks :3