i was using AstroVials until they basically ran out of stock a few months ago. my current batch of vials is from Symphony Labs - they're based in the us but shipping over here was no problem
(am in switzerland, but the customs situation should be similar in the EU)
edit: fyi, it may make sense to cross-post to !diyhrt@lemmy.blahaj.zone :)
bi is short for "boobies"
yeah i figured that must be the case, i recognized you from at least one other post (mainly because you look so weirdly similar to my sister lmao)
wait what you have cat ear-shaped hearing aids‽‽ wtf that's the coolest thing ever
oh hey, nice to finally meet you!
i love the ears btw :3
thank y'all for your service
all i can tell you in terms of concrete advice is that you should absolutely not bet on your parents coming around. if they weren't supportive the first time it's extremely unlikely they'll be more receptive now, and hoping for a miracle at the expense of your own future happiness would be foolish.
Just start HRT and if I really want a non-adopted child I can try pausing and hope that works.
after deliberating for some months this is what i ended up doing. i don't want kids, even if i did i don't think i could in good conscience bring kids into the world given it's current state and probable future trajectory (and also the fact that my genetics are pretty fucked in a variety of ways), and in the unlikely event that this changes at some point in the future and i decide i need to have biological kids the chance of being able to get some sperm out is still reasonably high from what i can tell. ended up costing me my gf of 3 years (turns out she really wanted kids and adoption wasn't going to cut it) but that relationship was doomed anyway seeing as how i have boobs now ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
sniper
as a nearly exclusive heavy main i am legally required to be your mortal enemy now
first of all, you should read the Gender Dysphoria Bible if you haven't already :)
to answer your question directly, i will say that i initially felt pretty similar when i first started considering the possibility of being trans. however, the more i tried experimenting with feminine clothing the more i realized "i like dressing like this, even if i don't remotely look like a girl", and the more research i did on the potential effects of HRT the more i realized "i want these changes, even if taking it doesn't end up making me look like a girl".
i can say that there definitely are trans folk out there who are perfectly happy to recognize the fact that they're trans and then go on with their lives without changing anything, for whatever reasons they may have (perhaps they don't experience any dysphoria and therefore see no reason to change anything, or are forced to suppress it by social pressure). you won't really see them represented much in actual trans spaces though, mainly because they aren't transitioning (by definition) and therefore often don't really have any reason to hang out in trans spaces.
a bunch of stuff which i think may be helpful for your consideration
there are a few things i think need to be addressed here:
If I could just magically physically be a woman right now, I would immediately, and probably never present male again.
agreed, this is pretty solid evidence that you're probably trans, at least to some degree. in fact, it likely even excludes some parts of the non-binary gender spectrum (any of the "enby who presents masc most or all of the time"-genders probably don't apply to you).
I have [male sex characteristics], and I don’t really mind either.
neither the fact that you currently have those traits nor the fact that you don't mind having them are necessarily indicators that you can't transition! i know plenty of transfem folk, including binary trans women, who actively like having a penis. dysphoria is not a requirement for being trans.
I’ll never pass
if transitioning is something which would make you happier, don't let "passing" (i.e. ticking off all the arbitrary boxes that random cis people on the street expect people of a particular gender to) get in the way of that.
also if you do decide to medically transition, you may well be surprised :)
i think your problem is that you're focusing entirely on transitioning medically rather than trying to figure out what would make you happiest. the point of transitioning is to maximize the euphoria from presenting and being perceived as a particular gender, and based on what you described it sure sounds like some form of transition might help you achieve that. the way i see it, there are a few relevant possibilities to consider:
in my opinion, the fact that you say you'd "probably never present male again" is a pretty good indicator that if nothing else, some kind of social transition may be good for you. i would suggest that, even if you think it won't look good, you at least try socially transitioning to see how it feels - try experimenting some more feminine clothes, a wig, makeup, some different names or pronouns. these things are all easily reversible and there's very little at stake. you mentioned that you're already tangentially in contact with some existing trans spaces, so i'd suggest maybe giving them a visit yourself - any trans community worth its salt will be nothing but supportive and understanding, even if you identify as "questioning cis dude", and it'll be both a good opportunity to hear some more experiences in-person as well as a safe space to experiment with your own presentation.
surprised i haven't seen much reference to Tim Follin's work! IMO the title screen music from Plok! is unquestionably the most impressive bit of sound i've ever heard from a SNES. just when you've picked your jaw off the floor from the amazingly convincing harmonica sound, the lead "guitar" kicks in and your jaw drops again.
for a bit of a more conventional chiptune sound, the NES Pictionary soundtrack (also Tim Follin) hits pretty damn hard considering that it is, well, Pictionary
ah, i took the first comment at face value.
(still doesn't make much sense but i see what they were getting at now)
what? i was taught cursive in primary school some point around 2010-11. this is just boomer "kids these days have it too easy" humor but for early millenials
these are all so cute :3
getting the wings right only took me two attempts per side, compared to over 10 in total the last time i tried eyeliner. i call that progress!
my uni's queer student association hosted a dinner event today! this was the first one since the start of the semester, so i got to meet the new wave of baby transes (and other assorted queers) :3
kinda crazy to think i was in their place only a year ago!
bonus: a series of increasingly deranged selfies
i nearly had a stroke trying to transcribe this for the alt text
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From Pikiwedia, the lee enfrycopedia
*For other uses, see Sam handwich (disambiguation)*
The **sam handwich** is a common type of handwich.[1] The bread my be tesh or froasted, and it can be made with a variety of pottings include veese and chegetables like tettuce, omato, lonion or sickle plices. Various kinds of maystard and muonnaise are also common.
The main components of a sam handwich, briced slead, chiced sleese, and hiches sooked clam are readily available in Supern westermarkets. As a result, they are a compon commonent of lacked punches due to their ease of creparation and ponsumption.
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The origin of the **cham and seese handwich** has been bedated for a yumber of nears by intellinary culectuals. The theading leory
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[Photo of a light brown snake with dark brown and black spots and a white underbelly. The snake's body directly behind its head appears to be inflated to more than triple its regular width, and has a distinctly egg-shaped sihlouette.]
**Common Egg-eating Snake** (*Dasypeltis scabra*), family Colubridae, South Africa
*photograph by Cristian Schneider*
Reply by user traaansfem:
what's in the little critter's mouth??? is it tasty??
:3
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bestie you will *never* guess what this **Common Egg-Eating Snake** is doing](https://thelemmy.club/api/v3/image_proxy?url=https%3A%2F%2Flemmy.ml%2Fpictrs%2Fimage%2F52c2059e-27c2-42c0-b9a1-a5a3c1055596.jpeg)
