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I feel relieved now.
I'll just cut my ties with family after paying off my student debt.
Still a few years away from that.
But glad to know that the hatred I held in my heart for my parents since I was 14 wasn't just an edgy phase, it was fully justified. (Well ok dad is still remaining).
I shouldn't be crying. I should focus my time on enjoying being alone. Many benefits to it.