western marxism does place a lot of emphasis on democratizing everything, but I just think it's not that hard to imagine that someone might have a bit of an authoritarian streak, even if they want the best for everyone. in fact wanting the best for everyone can probably justify a lot of ugly ("necessary") ideas. also with the way the west treats socialist, communist and marxist leaders it's not that difficult to fall into almost a left fascism, certainly a cult of personality. marxists are made into these highly alien beings, and maybe you like aliens. plus, marxist leaders were charismatic philosophers, and those are sometimes likeable traits.