Ethnic Minorities and People of Color

For those of you who don't know, I've been chatting with this really wonderful woman who has made me feel a level of love I've never felt before.

Fuck.

And... things are going well? We have a lot in common.

I eventually got to a point where I decided that I'd rather be single than settle. I require any person I date to have these 5 things in common with me, and due to statistical rarity, my mind's gotten hella comfortable with the, "It's alright if I just end up being single for the rest of my life" way of thinking. I've dated people who are only 4/5, and even that causes problems:

1. Sober/Straight Edge
2. Vegan
3. Radical Leftist (Preferably Marxist-Leninist)
4. Non-Religious (Preferably Antitheist)
5. Childfree

And she checks all 5 boxes, she's super friendly, she's incredibly beautiful, and I've been really enjoying my time talking to her. I just get hella nervous because the thought of fumbling the bag with someone like this is scary, especially since my heart is calling her name every second of the day.

She is super vocal about Palestine especially, Sudan and DR Congo too, and is a genuinely based communist (have to clarify because I've gotten my hopes lifted by liberals pretending to be leftists). She also has articulated this excellent point that I've been saying for a long time (but myopic people cannot get it): you can be an antitheist without being Islamophobic... and I surprisingly don't see people addressing stuff like this often.

She was raised in a strictly Orthodox Jewish and Zionist household, and since she is a bisexual woman, a communist, and an antitheist like me, she's had many conflicts with her family due to religious/political discrepencies.

She's so sweet and gentle, and though I cannot speak with 1000% certainty, I feel like a lot of our conversation is pointing in the direction that we may be able to be... something? I'm not getting my hopes up too much, but I feel hella fragile considering how much I just want to make it work.

And yes, I can definitively confirm that she is single.

And there are some signs that she may be some degree of reciprocal:

1. Her openness to continue chatting casually

Mind you, I first started with this woman by reaching out, apologizing to her, and offering her some kind words regarding some very toxic things that my now former online friend said to her. At first, I was just gonna leave it at that, but it just naturally became more than that... we began talking... like normally.

2. Her interest in my life beyond veganism, communism, etc.

She really loved my music, to the point where she wanted downloads so she could work out to it. She was interested in listening to me talk about a struggling job situation and even providing practical advice. She also is super empathetic whenever I bring up struggles, but of course, we mostly keep the chat positive.

3. Her willingness to discuss the potential of us meeting in person so early into us chatting. (She lives in the same country and time zone but a bit further off. I don't mind this. If anything, it's somewhat of a plus because I want to live this shitty reactionary state anyway.)

Literally 3 days into us talking, she said, "If you're ever near me, come hang out! We can even protest together!"

Why did she say this? All because I simply complimented her by saying, "You're such a vibe!" It wasn't a simple "Oh, thank you, that's so nice!" Literally, she jumped to the prospect of us being in close proximity that quick.

4. Her concern about my safety and sense of community.

When I tell her about my desire to do more pro-Palestine activism, she really lets me know to be safe. She actively went out of her way to ask if I have community or if I know any other vegans/communists where I am to side with me with animal rights/leftist activism, which unfortunately isn't the case in my current situation.

5. Symbolic reactions

Somewhat generous use of heart emojis, she loved that I sent her a picture of this symbol , and she has even sent me the neat little 💗 on some occasions. Obviously, none of this is definitely in the direction of, "Yeah, you got her all rizzed up," but it's favorable I guess.

6. Saying my kind words "mean a lot" to her.

This shows that she's not just taking it as a "basic meaningless compliment in a vacuum." She recognizes the weight of what the words mean and who they're coming from, and I can tell she genuinely means it.

7. VIBES.

And the last reason I'd give is vibes. She vibes with me. She's realizing we have a lot in common. She's getting that I understand her in ways that other people might not. The ENERGY I get has the potential to be romantic for sure.

I usually am quite confident with my rizz, but to be honest with you, my rizz is in a situation equivalent to Ben Shapiro debating someone who's not an unaware college student... for easy targets, my rizz can handle these situations with no problem, but for someone way more impactful? Good luck, buddy!

Wish me luck, all... this is really just me yapping.