I just read Trans Liberation: Beyond Pink or Blue
And
spoiler
I think I'm a masculine woman? Now that I'm a few years into my transition and I'm feeling comfortable in my skin, I realize I kind of like my broad shoulders and husky voice and the muscles I've grown from factory labor. But but I also really like wearing makeup and accessories and being ma'am'd and and my new name and stuff. I don't necessarily want to be androgynous, but I also don't hate it? It's kinda fun when people get confused.
So, yeah.
I think that's why I took "too long" to stop using the men's restroom. I never felt uncomfortable using a urinal.

