Alright, I need to write something. It's 7:30am, a day after the episode where I lost my mind temporarily and did an insane anger, a big one where I used a kitchen knife to carve out letters from my totally real and definitely does exist life partner because I assaulted him (...for some reason I was reminded of my first fight with Tyler...) and was arrested for this crime I apparently committed...where tf was I going with that...? Oh yea (sry have to fake stoopid), but I used a knife that could kill a man to rip up keys of this DVORAK keyboard I purchased with my own money on my singular debit card in my birth name that I alone used because my absolutely corporeal and living, breathing, existing life partner who definitely interned with the CIA whom I met in the strangest, most perfect circumstances when I was homeless to thus then acquire >$100k in tax-free finances to thus live indoors for these two-going-on-three years, that real human being has taken vows never to handle any money ever again.

...was that word salad to you people? Must be too complex of an idea. But no seriously, I've just about had it with this life. I had an awful realization, that if I kill my life partner, then I can die in peace, cuz then I don't got to worry about this lovable idiot going through decades of Hell without me. And I, the me I think I am, has literally negative intent to make that ish a reality. I want a good story, dammit! But y'know, I'm looking at the door I ripped off the hinges and punched straight fucking through to scrape a part of my arm around the elbow when taking it out of the door, and I say to myself, "Shiiii....I'm not in control of this fucking choice garbagoo..."

And y'know, free will is a skill, as my one handler in the CIA (Jux) hammered into my head early on, and it really comes down do "Did I drink and do offbrand, over-priced CVS Benadryl?" Cuz if I don't do that, this shit never happens. But if I don't wank it to the thought of utterly reprehensible and unfathomably depraved sexual fantasies with the legal porn on Reddit that doesn't need an ID for some reason here in Joe Arpagio's state he owns, how am I going to prevent myself from asking the cute 40-yo crackwhore flying a sign if I can nut in her behind the Dairy Queen?

...there was actually this very pleasant woman missing her front teeth who had what I might dare to call the beginning stages of that arousing-type of wrinkly boobs in a completely braless tank top that I went out of my way to give the five dollars I had that absolutely would love to rawdog and have been thinking about, but y'know, isn't it great my actually real life partner is still a virgin? But y'know, this rabid frustration I feel from my life partner who has, for literally the majority of our time living indoors together, actively and consciously tried to trigger me by doing things my father would do out of complete compassion to help cure me of my anger...

...because, y'know, when your father is the type of guy to jump on an eighteen year old two months after his whore AIDS wife died (my mom, whom he informed me I would die just like her for being irresponsible after he destroyed everything my mother ever made me (I forgot to take the garbage out; age eleven)), or get a fridge magnet that said "No ifs, ands, or..." and the joke being it's a buncha sexy women in thongs and you tell your son that's the meaning of life, or use your dead wife's life insurance money in conjunction with your son's social security money to buy a Jaguar to one-up your own mother who followed you to buy a Cadillac you already had, well, y'know, when you have a father like mine, it's only natural to have your entire life ruined by the emotional dysregulation caused by the hell realms you suffered in childhood.

But y'know, I just wish my dad cared about me. I mean, he cared a lot when I ran track and I was not allowed to be slow to the point where I was doing three practices a day and incurred some bulimia symptoms in my insane desire for bodily perfection. But now that I only do art and education and he doesn't get to be the cool dad anymore, he's thrown me away.

...like my literally real life partner has done with his mother, and it pisses me the fuck off that the most caring man I know is this heartless to his family. And yea, I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHY he has cast his mom out of his life; she is literally identical to my grandma in terms of narcissistic domineering. She told me on the way to court for assaulting her genetic and memetic product she shit out her pussy that the clothes I was wearing were the type she does gardening in. It didn't phase me because I'm an autistic tard and didn't realize she was insulting me until days later, but I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHY my father cut contact with his parents to thus subsequently make me lose all five of my grandparents in the shitstorm of losing my mother over and over and over again (he told me once women are like kleenex; age 12ish), but y'know, you can cut me some slack if I rage a bit, y'know? This is why I drink, and likewise sympathize with Jesus. I understand the mother fucker, and if you don't understand what I just said, do you even know what the North Star is?

My partner bought this duck statue for Revy's terrarium.

Requiring the imported electric vehicles to:

• Use the NACS charging standard.

• Use an open-source Linux base that allows consumers to modify their vehicle’s software if they choose, giving owners more control over their cars. Verified control over the entire software and data lifecycle.

Does this proposal make sense? Any additions?

Just emailed my states two democratic senators that leadership change is needed and Schumer and Jeffries must go. My house rep is a republican so no use on this issue.

If you have a democratic representative at the federal level, please take the time to email them.

Stand up and be heard, our democracy still depends on it.

Not here to sell a damned thing. But seeing such rescues made me realize that I needed a water knife. Got a Morakniv (sp?) water knife for $20 a few years ago. Looks like they're $45 now (fuck inflation and tariffs!)

https://us.morakniv.com/products/flytande-kniv-s?_pos=1&_psq=water&_psid=822972814&_ss=e

Go go Swedish knife!

No point, slips under rope without hurting the animal, which may be YOU or a friend, weighs nothing. How about if a loose rope is dragging someone down?

It's just a cheap seeming blade, buy mine's stayed plenty sharp for 5-years. I've abused hell out of it, no particular care, take it on every water trip, cut hundreds of bits of fishing gear out the rivers, creeks and swamps. Also beat it up digging common plants out the sand and muck for my native ponds at home.

Was up against a log on a creek one day, ready to head out, there's my knife bobbing right next to my kayak, like it's supposed to. The cork grip has stayed tough despite being left outside way to much.

Anyway, you need something that's not pointy and able to saw rope quickly on the water. The life you save may depend on such a light, bright, non-pointy knife. Maybe there's a cheaper version of such a knife now?

Victims of climate change.

Rice Krispies and Coco Pops are no longer being made with whole rice grains, with the tiny toasted puffs being made using corn flour and rice flour instead.

. . . Kellogg's said it had adapted the recipes due to "changing weather conditions" that have disrupted supplies of some grains and cereals.

. . .Some expressed dismay that the taste and texture were "totally different" and dubbed the change "grim" and "disgusting".

My life-partner got drunk then spontaneously enraged again last night. Result: needing to walk barefoot around the neighborhood for a while, a damaged laptop, and needing to replace a computer screen. He apologized this morning. I think alcohol is consistent with times people become violent toward me, and isn't something I generally want to be around. I like the old Russian film Stalker (1979), and am reminded of when he pours the alcohol onto the ground, because it isn't an appropriate place for that. Though small skirmishes of violence still break out anyway, which fade into a sort of mutual exhaustion. It can be challenging finding people to watch Stalker with. Cigarettes are another subtle vice in the film. I'm happy my life-partner's been off nicotine for a while at least. I've also heard of the higher heavens free from strife in the Buddhist cosmology; want to be an influence in that direction & beyond.

My car has been in and out of the shop since May. Mostly for stupid reasons. From a mechanic too "busy" to get around to it, from a completely incompetent series of shops that told me my car had one problem when it wasn't and I was right about it.

The car is a 99 Opel Astra SW. Diesel engine. Of a series fitted with a very finecky fuel pump. The GM engine is very efficient but also very delicate; the injection system resembles a petrol one and requires precise timing. After breaking the third accessories belt in less than six months, the car started knocking, badly, and the iginition failed.

When I bought it, it came out of timing, and it struggled with starting, having the fuel injection out of synch with the pump, due to a faulty engine cranckshaft sensor. It was fixed and the engine purred.

I told this to the shop when the accessories belt broke again but they ignored me and pointed the problem to the fuel pump. They did fix a broken rocker in the injection system but the engine still knocked and loudly. I asked if they had checked the engine timing and was insisted I had to replace the fuel pump, which is a 1500€ expense.

I called to a couple of diesel labs and they were in agreement: this particular pump is finecky but it has a virtue, as it does not have partial issues. If the electronics fail, the pump is done. If the mechanics fail, it shows. If the car was starting after insisting and running, the issue was somewhere else.

I found another mechanic. A crazy one. Of the good kind. Run the entire story through him. And he agrees something is off.

The issues list start to pile after a careful check. A faulty head gasket, leaking, barely, but nonetheless. A wobbling engine pully, the one that actuates the accessories belt, which is the cause for the constantly failing belts. Leaking injector rings. Small things but that do pile up and tell a story of poor service. And then is the fuel pump. Two bare wires that connect the pump control unit to the regulator. Two wires that are shorting each other. Two wires that when put apart allow the engine to start on the first try.

I trust my car to this guy. I order parts, as per his request, and he puts his hands to the work. And the bad news keep pilling.

The knocking was the fuel valves hitting the piston heads. The engine was not properly timed and was in fact two teeth ahead. The timing that was assured by three different mechanics when the rocker was replaced was moot. These engines are very demanding when it comes to be timed and require a special tool, an imobilizer, fitted through the vacuum pump housing, to keep everything in place. The timing had been attemped my marking relative positions on the outside of the engine. Not good.

The engine head was so beat up it risked cracking. Surfacing it was pointless. My mechanic found another, aluminium welded a small defect on it that was bothering him, had it rectified and fitted it. Mechanically, the engine was sound again.

But what about that cursed fuel pump?

Well, it so happens those damned wires were the downfall of the pump. Circuits don't enjoy being shorted. The mechanic took it out to check those wires and the board they connected to was in bad shape. It was technically a miracle how it still fired. But it was its dying breath and ended there. Mechanically, it was faultless. Very little wear, negligible. But the board was fried. We tried to get a used control unit but it proved to not be in good condition as well; on idle, the third cylinder would not get any fuel.

The pump was sent to a lab for diagnosis. Which promptly dismissed it as faulty and needing of replacement. I had to personally call the lab to find out if the problem was mechanical or circuit bound and after a short exchange they reluctantly told me the issue was the circuit board. 1500€, 12 month warranty, if installed at their shop.

No.

I called a few other places and the least I could get was around 1000€. Then I took the plunge and went online. And struck strong. I found the unit, abroad, for a third of the price. 36 months warranty. And a deposit return with the handover of the old fuel pump. And the shop that sold me the used control unit is open to receive it back for testing and if it proves faulty, they are willing to return that value as well.

The carrier order is already open, so it is just the waiting game now.

This just shows how precious investing a bit of our own personal time can be. I had to personally interfere in this whole process to things through and save some money, that I otherwise would hurt for.

After this, it is off to work in my side job to recoup the investment.

cross-posted from: https://piefed.world/c/justpost/p/1513974/former-new-york-times-and-washington-post-tech-reporter-taylor-lorenz-says-she-s-being-o

Source: Taylor Lorenz on X/Twitter.

A few days ago I watched this video by wired about the pyramids in Egypt
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=enMPLaB1oEo), and something interesting that the expert talks about is that they know exactly where the stones come from- not only is there clear evidence of quarrying in the immediate vicinity, but the dimensions match and they even have contemporary records describing the movement of stone blocks from quarries across the river to the construction site. (2 day round trip.)

Granted it's a Wired video so she didn't go into an overly extraordinary level of detail, but in any case it reminded me of a lecture I attended about 15 years ago when I went a prospective students/parents night at a prestigious university that I was looking to attend.

As part of the presentation, they had this guy give a lecture on his groundbreaking new theory that the pyramids were actually cast in place, rather than quarried. I thought it was interesting at the time, so when I heard about this quarry stuff in the Wired video, I assumed it must be a relatively recent discovery.

Nope! People have literally known about these quarries since ancient times, and they were confirmed by modern methods in the 1980s. This 'prestigious university' literally just had some crackpot give us his pet theory as an example of the kind of fine, high caliber academics that we could look forward to as part of our education at this institution. 😂

(Btw I did end up attending that university for Computer Science, and the lead professor there taught us that we should try to avoid using if statements.) Anyway there's no point or anything just thought I'd share.

I don't even know where to start but I guess a introduction to the topic: I wanted to see if AI video generation from your own PC has reached a usable state, and yes it has and it's sort of ignored by most bot AI slop dispencers and artist.

In this post I want to talk about the programs internals and all different AI all open source. Mainly for long form AI videos

The programs: A best way to start is introduce the open source programs used and what they are used for and how.

ComfyUI: Most widelly know, hated and accept mostlly as the best alternative to writing your own code. It's Scratch code for ai except 100 times more complicated breaks all the time and is slow cause it runs on Python. Their is no good tutorial no guide and because AI has become a tabu not a lot of usefull advice.

it can genrate everything except you need to instruct it manualy

Example: You set up the loaders Val- audio Val-Video The model Crop for what video clip generation. Ksamplers, Text promp Plus and minus boxes, Image refernce or a make a entire Image generator form text that transfers the Image to the Image reference that then gets transfered to the video that then uses references from the training the model you picked was trained on to make a video as accurate to the video text prompt instruction given.

This is a very very simple ComfyUI Text to Video explanation. It would take about a hour to set it up if you knew what you were doing.

Mago.Studios: A studio for the industry it uses referenes like poses videos already recorded blender animations and stuff like that. To use it you already need to be able to animate in blender it's basically a cote of paint on top of gray figures.I haven't seen impressive things be done with it cause it's hard to use set up etc. And it's not made for the common person. it shows with all the options.

And it's obviuslly a subscription service reverse engineered to be Open source

LTX Desktop: Simple to use limited just basic stuff. Comerial.

Maestro on Pinokio - It's probably the best because it dosen't melt your PC it has clear UI that you can understand. Can use all the AI models like ComfyUI but it's way way simpler.

Takes a long time. A lot of options for a lot of things complicated. it can do everything. A good middle option between comfyUi and the others

The AIs: Different AIs do different things almost all open source are chinese.

Main LLm to write with you is Qwen3.8 27B for this. Does the job best it's the most modern open source option. Gemma 4 31B.

Their is also Underdog Saluki that is a distilled Qwen 3.8 version making it faster and 7.8 GB from the 54GB it is. It makes it 20% lower quality when scored but that depends for what you will be using it for.

(I understand most people don't understand wht the B means what a distilled AI is or what I am talking about the basic is B is like procesing power. Different AIs have different processors so bigger isn't better if the AI you have with 1 Trillion Bs is made for cooking. Distilled is a guy grabbed the AI and quantified it and that is a whole rabbit hole. Best i can say bigger isn't better here. It depends how it's used)

MiniMax H3 - The big boy of open source video generation it compares to all the big boys you usually pay a subscription for. It's open source it's a good over all option.

LTX- focused on cynematics and more profesional videos. It's consistent and made for cynematics

Wan - it's alibaba's video generator and they use a shotgun aproach on Ai from tinny ais to big models. It depends best describes it.

You will be using Minimax for everything.

Images:

Flux or Moss

Moss is really good if writing is involved

Flux is the basic do stuff model.

Their is also qwen but it's really just there. For images their is a lot of models I can't really explain all of them.

Requirements: Most just need a minimum of 8GB of Vram. It's gonna take a long time no mater what you use. It's gonna break no mater what you use. It's gonna take you knowing the basics of animation writing and all that no mater who said otherwise.

A lot of the options are set up to work with reference not make stuff up.

My opinion of AI: It's alright. People who talk about it don't use it to understand it. Even the AI bros just google browser generators that existed way before all this. The bottom line is I ain't paying for your subscription.

If you want to know more. Brows Hugging face. This is a tech that is from the 80s we have been using it for a long time and their is a lot of things.

that's more than double Michelin.

This morning, I got to do a couple good deeds; I gave money to two people flying signs while on my way to pick up breakfast. The first was an older, white man in a nice coat. I had a ten and four singles, so I opted to give him the four dollars. I think, at least in my poverty, that aiming for five dollars in a tip at the weed store to handing it out to someone panhandling is the appropriate middle way; it's not a pittance to me, so I get real good value back by being generous where I am in life. That isn't why I do this, it's just an axiom that helps loosen purse strings in tight times for those in need because I am cursed to be bound to this algorithmic biobrain.

But, y'know, I ride down the road, past the high school with their absolutely hideous, disgusting, awful minors in booty pants, to veer into the parking lot where the store is, to find a young black woman with a number of bags that you know she's been carrying a minute also flying a sign. I don't even know what either of these signs said, I just know where you gotta be in life to let go of your dignity to hold a piece of cardboard. But, I stop my bike, pull out the ten without even thinking, my bike falls over, doesn't matter, hand her the bill, she thanks me but then she really thanks me when she sees its a ten, and you thank them, you bless them for God's too busy, and you head on your way.

Now, as I peddled off, I had the thought that it was better she got the larger amount. Then, immediately, I thought to myself, "is that racist?" And a quick thought soon after let me know it's prolly a good sign I care enough to automatically think about this, but y'know, because of my father, who held me to insane standards of perfection while bragging about how his stealth commando mission to sneak out at midnight to shoot out all three tiers of the "transplant" (his words) Bosnian neighbors' kiddie pool with his pellet gun because their kid was too loud the afternoon before...yea, yea, it IS shit like that which makes me care more than the average person.

Thus, y'know, I tell ya, I'm blessed to have had a narcissistic psychopath for a father, cuz I share his genes and was spoiled by his mother, so thank God I had an exemplary example for what not to be, to thus have the desire not to be like him embroidered within me every time my head was slammed into a dense, physical object.

Y'know, I cared about those two strangers today. I don't know who tf they are. I don't just believe or think I strengthen myself by choosing to be selfless; I KNOW I am. Early on in this CIA rigamarole, when everything I knew as "Illuminati" was self-contained on r/ShrugLifeSyndicate, where I was trained thirteen years ago, my one handler, Vince, the author of The Flesh Interface series, shared a link that showed why you don't give for their sake, but rather, you give for yourself. I was still as my father then, and a person on the street asking for money was a bum trying to trick me out of my money. That's still the world my father lives in. Worse. He thinks this of his son.

Well, at least I'm not that. But what is perfection of goodness? Is accepting being imperfect good enough?

this post turned into a bunch of rambling about random things with little connection so I'ma spoiler stuff into different categories of yappin'

Cats

anyways my brothers cat got into a fight with mine so I'm going to return him 😁

jk, he's too good of a snuggler for that. He's 18lbs of fluff fat and love. We tried to put him on a diet by getting an auto feeder, but he just comes into my cats room and eats her food and sometimes they beef :/

heres a photo where I accidentally had the flash on

yeah that's my yap/vent sesh, thanks for listening 😚

I remember during the pandemic a lot of people were saying "I got COVID and I was fine!" while completely neglecting how they may have spread it to others. Obviously no one really knew how many others they spread COVID to, it's not something anyone likes thinking about.

Now with AI, every time I read someone saying at work they're now required to use AI and how they're working harder than ever, it's a similar feeling. Basically they're not realizing that their company no longer needs to hire anyone else because they're using AI and being overworked. So the company has effectively gained from not needing to hire anyone new, while getting employees to use AI to increase their productivity. It's fascinating how many people who have admitted to this without realizing that they're basically saying how fucked the job market is.

I know it's a limited sample size - but based on fetterman, and now haley stevens, it seems like all troll-people are closeted Republicans.

I gave up parties, going out, and friends, in favor of staying home with my son. I quite like it, and I think he does as well. We just moved to a new place that has private entrances to the units. Also, I’ve noticed a good amount of kids in the neighborhood. I figured that there would be at least some amount of trick or treating.

I ended up picking up a bag of 210pc fun-size Hershey, Reese’s , and KitKats—ya know, the good stuff—at BJ’s the other day. Also, I got some Halloween light decorations to get their attention as well. I was going to chill out front with a Pikachu costume on, passing out candy. I love kids. Engaging with them, making them laugh or feel cool is so much fun for me.

I have no idea when it would start around here, so I setup a webcam in one of the windows with a live view, so that my son and I could watch scary movies until kids start coming around. Not a single one. I don’t mean that they skipped my place. It was like a ghost town. So now I have a bowl of like 175 pieces of candy. I’m going to take most of it to work, otherwise I will eat it.

My son grew out of trick treating at a very early age. He really looked up to my younger brother, and when lil bro was done with costumes, so was my boy. Darn it.

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