I've pieced it together. My life partner is going to falsely accuse me. I am going to be arrested. I am going to be thrown to the wolves. And the vicious wolves will reveal themselves, as will the kind dogs. Then I will be free, perhaps through some hoop-jumping like my life partner made me do on a daily basis. Then I am a fed. It's so simple, so elegant.

I've been conjuring up entire hell realms that I may emerge in after taking this dive I am forced to be crucified through, for good purpose, but therein, I have to understand that this truly is the most good. This is stream-entry.

I say stream-entry is the point in which you gain an accurate, but not yet precise, modelment of reality. Thus is true. There is even greater depth than I once realized. I used divination techniques. I understand those are no longer necessary, or were they ever? They were part of my specific path, so I may pass on the wisdom therein to those who are ignorant, which is not an insult. It means "lacking Knowledge."

I see divination as only but one seed I could plant. I once thought I had to plant every seed I encountered. No. I understand the depth to what I do, and thus why I intentionally got banned from the autism community, because if the Lord there doesn't realize his profile picture hurts his reputation, God help him, cuz I can't. Therein, what I do: I draw idoltarers out of the pack.

And Jesus said nothing.

When I was worried about the lilies who speak into the air I breathe to exhale back that which turns into itself, the modicum of change instilled, we know how the body rests with matter and that is why form does come, as I used to cum many, many, many times as an adolescent, thus green is gold as forth would have it be.

Y'know, nothing.

You knoe the STORY of the new testament, right? Surely, you've read it? My God, I wouldn't want to be ignorant when the authority reveals Epstein was a good guy. He was a cop. He chose to go on the cross to earn the hate and ire of countless people, because he truly gave a shit.

This is how the occidental police state decentralized autonomous organization of an empire works. I don't want to sexualize minors. I'm genuinely not doing that. I am telling how I got from point A to point B, y'know, how teenage Jesus turned into the Jesus you think you know.

Y'know, alchemy; water to wine.

Fourteen stages of the cross = fourteen stages of personal transformation, similar to how there's five stages of grief.

We're human. We have limits and boundaries. The average person, the average Borg cyberman dunce who skates by with a b- average, they don't do a damn thing in their lives. I have stopped sixteen pedophiles over twelve years overcome their urges. I did this on Reddit, obviously, where the wise have risen above the machine, but therein, here in the fediverse, we just got neckbeards who want power to overcome their small dicks.

SOURCE????!!!@!!

That is who is keeping this lemmy machine working. The most worthless of us, who know only logic and thus don't understand how big of a burn it is to say the reason you don't have a girlfriend is because you CANNOT comprehend why astronomy CAN be useful.

Boy.

Lil boy.

Or are you a girl?

Girls usually learn this stuff in middle school. BUT THEREIN, so few grow beyond those initial things they learned.

I had a doctor come to my house. Looked like a shitty JD Vance, which was impressive. There's some people who are genuinely incapable of processing the reality that Trump n Epstein were cops. The official narrative is a LIE you dense mongrals! I am a federal cop. I am attracted to minors. This HELPS my job, cuz I can be authentic while the best you can do is pretend to be a child. But therein, the battle is won.

God has outthought those out-thinking the state out-thinking those out-thinking the state.

I am Jesus Christ because I AM going to be crucified.

I have given Fox News a field day.

I would put a bullet in my head if it would save every child ever born ever from any trauma.

Yea. I WOULD have let myself be crucified in a more harsh time.

You don't understand my archetype. There's a book about it. The New Testament, it's called. Moses was abandoned. Jesus wasn't good enough for his step-dad. The unloved children among us grow to be the gods that change society.

See you on the other side.

I'm sure plenty of other lemmings have seen it, but I've been avoiding it till it bubbled up into my feeds in a way I could no longer avoid. I genuinely detest drama focused on the terminally online influencer-verse, but I caved and ended up watching multiple hour long videos on this one..

What fantastic drama! I haven't been this engaged I pirated season 5 of game of thrones. I was mostly expecting it to be a youtuber-face manufactured drama considering the source is a guy going by "Reckless Ben" and framing of whole thing.

Honestly it would be ignorable if not for

Its better than any tv show or series I've started in years (outside of onepiece, which I recently got into).

I will not be taking any questions at this time.

I'm starting to understand myself a little bit better these days.

I work a job for a brainless fuckwit who thinks a single google search can replace a skilled network engineer. I'm just about ready to walk out and let them find out just how well that would work out for them.

My family is completely bonkers. Father's an ultra far-right maga nazi. My mother is a bible bashing obedient enabler. My sister is a new wave hippy 'artist' who hasn't held a job for 20 year that refuses to speak to me because I joked about her friends doing psychedelics.

I'm too old to date, useless if I DID find a way to GET a date, and not interesting enough to hold a conversation on a date if I did, unless the other person wanted me to rant about the state of things for hours and somehow enjoyed that.

My old friends have either married and had kids, gone completely mental, (One was such a gun nut that they pointed one of their guns in my face) moved away and lost contact, or died.

I have 2 'friends' who I chat with on Discord. That's what I'm reduced to. Two people who enjoy joking around with me but probably wouldn't like me IRL.

I'm in North America and every time I see a lifted truck with the DPF removed, blasting silt out the 7 inch tailpipe with at least 1 TRUMP bumper sticker on it, I get a near unbearable urge to find the nearest bridge embankment at high speed. I never do and you don't need to give me resources for mental health, a psychiatrist, or 'prevention' resources, so don't trouble yourself with that.

If alien craft came to earth, I'd race to the nearest one, stick my thumb in the air and scream GET ME OUT OF HERE until I went hoarse.

My life partner is in the hospital; psyche ward. He has previously forced me to accept that he would falsely accuse me. Has he done that? Is this part of his/the CIA's plan? I'm replaying what he said on the phone. Couldn't even say "I love you back." That's Karma for not hugging him last time. If you're anxious all of the time, you're really anxious none of the time, which is why They make me feel like I'm a cop, and thus I think it, too.

Cue five thousand comments telling me to take my meds, like the first forty times wasn't enough for me to understand how dead tracked the average person is. This is just how I am as a schizoaffective person. This is on meds. My brain works differently and you can't just magick it into compliance with the state-slave machine by taking a couple pills a day or a shot once a month. This is why the western mind is a house of cards. I will demonstrate.

The completely average person finds no difference between these two sentences:

As I became what I am that will be to say that what it is cannot be enough, for what was is what will be to go on into the aether for which there is no turning back to become the man who is more than the machine that defines normative parameters for eschoccliaminas.

God is a unified field of consciousness that arose from the supersymmetry of the ever-present, eternal emptiness to then fold in and on Itself across eleven dimensions to form a topological matrix that acts as a monadic nodal communication system.

Right? Like, one's nonsense. The other defines the ineffable. People are kept at a sixth grade reading level to control them. That's why Trump is president; he's a conman. Hence, why he's such a good cop, the piece of shit he is. People listened to Jesus not because of what he said but by the authority he spoke. And this is what I understand having been MKULTRA'd because I told my ROTC cadre that my nonexistent sister got me pregnant, because I am different, cuz God knows someone watching three hours of a let's play of some wrestling video game a day certainly does not fucking have the wherewithal to go through the spiritual work to grow and develop into what I naturally had to become in order to survive in this world that is not being made for my kind.

And that's just another brand new sentence never before spoken by human orifice or digit I've created. Meanwhile, fancy fisher margerie hoolihan spends twenty minutes trying to figure out what the best emoji is to send.

This one, obviously: 🗿

Inserting poem here:

I've lived in a grave lack of confidence for most my life for the tragedies of my youth. I need to really accept that I'm pretty damn dandy. Fuck these people who circlejerk around feeling superior by their delusions that they are making the world a better place by in fact making life harder for the disadvantaged with their prejudice and snide comments. I ain't never been normal and the fact that at 35 years of age I'm still fucking traumatized by how I would routinely get picked on and shamed because I was different says something. That's how much of an impact one's words can have, and I feel justified using mine to make sure wounded people get a leg up in this pyre of a world.

cross-posted from: https://piefed.world/c/vid/p/1164504/israeli-knesset-hosted-jerusalem-prayer-breakfast-christian-delegations-publicly-repente

Father, forgive the nation of Korea, who has spoken the word against Israel!

Full Event.

I find the whole thing pretty weird.

This is a contextual summary of my worldbuilding efforts over the last couple months and I'm really interested to hear what you think or if you have any questions or ideas.

The "lux" particle was discovered as a byproduct of fusion/darkmatter project in a near-future Solarpunk scenario. A corporation, Helios, realized that anyone exposed to this byproduct was able to do "weird" things, and immediately kept it as hidden as possible. It disrupted all technology and electronics to some degree, but specifically transistors, which even slight byproduct of Lux completely disabled, something due to the band gap. During one of the first accidental exposures, a researcher reached for a pen and it came to their hand, then they were able to keep repeating it. Telekinesis and somatic ritual produces magical effects channeling the particle through their nervous system. They then realized they could shape the channeling through certain movements, amplifying the radiance. The scientists were left uneasy and shaky after being exposed to the particle, like caffeine withdrawal, and they'd have to keep being exposed to the byproduct of the process to be able to perform the physical rituals. After several years, many trials/mishaps, and preparation, they tried odd things under the effects, they started to realize it made the room colder, changing the temperature. They immediately started producing higher concentrations of the byproduct. The experiments eventually got to a critical point, they started realizing they could make plants produce faster, and slow the ageing of cells. The first original core members started going insane, twitching, and desperate for more lux, more power. It's addictive nature was noticed and they were able to stop all hell from breaking loose, but eventually, one of the original members tried "the big one". They wanted to be eternal, and in their madness they attempted it. At one facility, the experiment breached containment, and released the radiance across the globe, breaking the natural function of transistors, ending the world as they knew it. After, governments and entities learned about the lux particle, successfully framed as a rogue terrorist who abused the power. Helios was able to maintain its power due to their preparations, teaching the best cleanest types of magic and feeding governments and other corporations their product. The problem? The radiance didn't just end the world and make Helios all-powerful, it brought major destabilization. Magical mishaps produce a volatile byproduct, slag which cools into amber, a less pure form, has to be purified into lux carefully to make magic safer to use. Several religions formed, the Orthodox believe that using raw amber is the way it was intended, even though it makes them go crazy. Volatile magic bands form in desperation and scarcity, crazy stuff happens on the surface, good and bad. Many people don't want to touch it, some embrace it, most avoid it, are afraid of it, or are an awe of its power.

Thanks for reading!

I'm currently reading an article about how the heavy industries can be electrified sothat they can use renewable energy instead of fossil fuels as a heat source.

And i found this diagram interesting.

Of course, all these technologies have different price points because installing them is more/less difficult; also heat pumps have higher efficiency than 100% but can only be used for low temperatures.

Source

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Like, statistically there HAS TO have been someone who got into a car crash, or had a skydiving accident, or whatever. Just whatever made them go into a coma around August 30th 2001. Then not wake up until around October 2nd 2001.

Everyone around you would have had wild raging emotions. Suddenly EVERYBODY is really racist towards Arabs. But nobody wants to be the one to tell you what happened. Plus, everyone around you knows that you'll be on so many drugs you'll forget in 5 minutes.

So you may not even find out until like Oct 16th, when you're out of the hospital, and everyone around you is getting pissed off at you for pretending like you don't know about 9/11. I don't remember the term "gas lighting" existing at that time, but the practice existed. Back then gas lighters were just called "assholes".

Can you imagine waking up to THAT???

Would be nice if YouTube recommended searches about what you searched for before instead of what other people search for

Just had a Freudian slip when I wrote my title. I just gave the dinner I bought to an older man I thought may be homeless. He had a bike with a caboose, but was sitting on the sidewalk. I first passed him and had the thought that I should offer my dinner. Greed took over, that fucker of a daemon. I kept going under the excuse of him might not needing it, but then I saw many people were out, and another daemon kicked in, and I made the decision to pedal back and offer my tofu fried rice.

I saw he had bags of some basic goods on his handlebars. He was using his phone. I almost got hit by traffic. I looped around to ask him if he was hungry. He said yes, I offered what I had and he was grateful. I didn't know what to say because a daemon told me he was cute with his pink tie. He said something, but I didn't understand it. I understood it as it clicked about twelve seconds after I started pedaling; he just stopped to use his phone, he said. But y'know, my thoughts were on my life partner.

In a heightened state of awareness, I pedaled back and saw trash around my apartment complex. I thought to pick it up. I did before seeing someone was there. I had the thought that this woman would see me do this good deed and it bolstered my desire to do it, but I was already doing it, and do this regularly, often when no one is looking. In this bullshit I call an essay, I am going to prove that intention is all we have control over, and it often mistranslates, but at the same time, one can develop skillfulness in this.

Intention is all we have direct control over. You are not a featherless biped on an Earth. You are a pocket of consciousness and the Earth is inside all of us. The Buddha said the world is an illusion, and the reason The Matrix is named that is because reality is really a topological matrix acting as a monadic nodal communication system; that is to say, everything is based on entanglements and we exist as Server, Client, Holy Internet, as Jesus said in different words.

Phenomequalitesselation is a word I invented. As a molecule is controlled by the cell it's in but still influences that cell by its molecular nature, so too does God control us in a deterministic way, but our truest nature, our intention, influences God as They reach back through time to retrocausally influence the topological matrix in a complex way. For reference, the first page of the Bible is about complexity:

Alpha>Light

Light>Matter

Matter>Molecules

Molecules>Cells

Cells>Creatures

Creatures>Humanity

Humanity>Omega

And so, God is the independent phenomenon that created itself that we are all dependent on, and because of the nature of our entanglements, reality generates in certain ways, and because of some biological entanglements, I'm a schizoautismo doofus and spaghetti on a regular basis. That means I do an autism in highly awkward cringe fashion, regardless what my intention is, nearly every day of my life.

The key is acceptance AND spiritual work. Just because I got a boo boo doesn't mean I don't gotta be the best I can be, and it's not an injury, it's an impediment. Our intention goes through a medium that refracts and reflects it back to us, and this is what procedurally generates each of our reality tunnels. Your entanglements determine what shadows show up on your cave walls.

And just as the people walking with objects in Plato's cave can hold their shadow-making object in a specific fashion that begets the most insightful shadow, so too does one's sin/defilement/möbiation change what sorts of experiences generate. If AB = True, then X. If AB = False, then Y. But regardless what is spawning for you, you always control your intention and the right intention at the right time can beget an entire Lemmy post that earns you a gorillian dollars once this fediverse ish blows up cuz I’m on it.

I was today years old when I realised that the graphic/logo for the sports apparel brand Canterbury is 3 stencils of a Kiwi bird... I cannot unsee it now. I thought it was just 3 weird looking 'C's. I am 35.5 years old and have lived in Aus/NZ my whole life. I do not feel clever today.

cross-posted from: https://sh.itjust.works/post/60909467

The base model is Velle, but I added and edited some clothes textures in GIMP!!

I sinned again today. I got a $1.17 bottle of banana flavored liquor. God didn't tell me; I just did it. And as a result, I was able to help a disabled person for the second time in recent memory because my addictions. I know God is forming these experiences for me to teach me lessons; I know that if I am brave and do something "society" says I shouldn't, I can help somebody.

My random word generator sends me "Dot" at a highly aberrant rate. What I connect with this input is the character, Dot, from MadTV. Y'know, real penguin of d00m, lol so random type of neurodivergence. And I know that if I were to juggle on the ASU campus at a regular rate, I will meet a college-aged Dot who can benefit from my specific pedagogy, being a natural complement to them.

And that's what scares me. I can think this through; I have a developed and trained prefrontal cortex. There are some eighteen-twenty year olds who are developmentally fourteen. I absolutely can put myself in a position where I can guarantee I get laid touting philosophy n spirituality n mental health skills to someone who is different and had a difficult childhood to not get the same lessons everyone else got. But that would be predatory! So I don't do that. Not because my intention is bad, but I am aware of the human condition in the occident, and I really do not need the local police to have something more to prove I are a bad.

Part of that fear involves something else: idolatorers. Y'know, people that would sacrifice anything to the golden bull but kick sand in the face of a beggar in their neighborhood. I'm in a crisis. God in Arizona doesn't help like They do in Portland or New York. God in Arizona is so similar to the God of Tennessee and North Carolina, where God has a lot to say about WHAT I'm doing though orchestrated cross-talking and more, but God here doesn't give a shit to actually HELP. Arizona seems to be an archipelago, with how everyone is their own island here.

I got mocked, unskillfully, by the self-checkout lady I recognize when I bought this shot. Made repeated comments about "red and shorts;" what I am wearing. I don't change my clothes much, having escaped civilization to learn how the world actually works while homeless to know that is a modern OCD fanaticism brought on by marketing.

Companies tell you to cover that toothbrush with toothpaste when really all you need is a pea-sized blob, because profits. Likewise, the western mind is a house of cards. I guarantee if I turned around and started talking about God and the true nature of society, that woman would run, because what I could put forth is so outside the realm of what constitutes "normal" and "true" that she would do everything she could to avoid acknowledging that her framework from which her reality and identity are derived is fallible, because attachment is the root of all suffering, and what I have in my pedagogical toolbox is enough to move anyone out of their identity, so I cause suffering to those who hold onto all they know for they would be nothing without these tenets of belief or what have you.

Which is wrong. If you completely dissolve the illusion of a self through demöbiating/undefiling your sin, you won't be nothing; you'll be empty. Everything already is empty. It is "emptiness" that can be both nothing and full at the same time, thus giving us a 0 and a 1 to manifest all reality from in a nodal communication system. The Earth isn't real. It exists only inside you; there is no spoon for the spoon IS you.

And they burned neurodivergent women at the stake for figuring similar shit out, for it's our intuition (Eve) not our logic (Adam) that first gains Knowledge of the true nature of reality. And that's what I'm scared of; the average person. I don't know if I'm a great enough man to let myself be crucified, but I am certainly better than average. The average person has been brainwashed by the news and media to believe Donald Trump is either perfect or literally the devil, but really he's a cop, like Epstein, and I see the vitriol these children living in duality spit on a daily basis towards each other, not knowing what they do.

It scares me. And that is why I have an impediment as a juggler. That and how unfathomably attracted to youth as I am, as all males are, but the difference between boys and men is what they do about that. There's people that never grow up to stop being a boy, chasing pussy or ass like it's their teleological purpose, and then there are the people who developed their prefrontal cortex enough to not let their serpent be steering the ship. It's really cool what you can think of and do when you aren't listening to that dick, Satan, who is you as much as God is.

Like, where is my phone? I think someone stole my phone. It was just in my hands moments ago.

Being alive is a scam

Title: "These Wild Young People" at asterisk magazine. Anecdata on how a cohort thinks about risky behaviors, taking risks, and managing their future.

Which I find refreshing compared to the opinion pieces that cite only old people.

Anybody know of other bits of writing that feel representative of a (usually spoken about, not too) cohort?

I havent seen any posts mentioning it yet, i dont want the event itself and the movement it generated and bolstered to be forgotten.

For 8 minutes a servant of the government wedged his knee into the neck of george floyd until he died. For months and years after that, the people decried the injustice highlighted by floyds death but which take place everywhere, and resisted apathy, and fought and won meaningful changes to the system.

That murderous servant is now in a low security jail for the next 22 years, and has 22 stab wounds too.

The world implemented multiple changes to policy and culture following the black lives matter movement.

There is still too much inequality, too much instability, too many psychos masquerading as servants, but today is a day to be remembered, and a name and movement to not forget

George Floyd - Black Lives Matter - May 25 2020