thisisnotgoingwell

Thanks. I have some time off I need to take this month, so I'll try to get that sorted. Haven't found a PCP yet in my area, so I need to start there and hope that they refer me to someone who can see me in a timely manner. I feel like I need to start understanding how my brain works under the hood so I can move towards goals instead of going against the current.

What does it feel like to be on prescription medication? I've heard rhetoric that it's basically meth (not that I know, but that the effects on the brain are similar) without any of the chemicals that give you euphoria. I'm afraid that it will render me a zombie or that I'll lose a sense of identity or the tenacity/creative spark which fuels me. Are those fears irrational? Are those things I should discuss with a counselor?

Thanks, that's pretty helpful. I'll save that because there are a lot of useful comments. I feel like my brain is an operating system with a highly powerful processor but it has a defect where it accidentally kills processes.

I haven't yet no, but I highly suspect it. And a lot of my teachers in school told my parents I had ADHD/some form of autism but they brushed that off because they thought it meant there was something wrong with me or that they were suggesting I was incapable. Not sure where to start really. Do I go to a primary care doctor who refers me to a specialist? I haven't had health insurance for most of my life, so I'm not sure how this works.

I'm having a crisis here thinking about this lol. It's a part of the system that is your machine if you consider the system to be the entire use of the computer. But it is not a part of the operating system on the drive. It's a lower level operating system that identifies your hardware's capabilities and functionality and has sets of instructions on how to boot from your storage. Computers are really just many many layers of abstraction. Separating the abstractions into layers gets pretty complex. But if you create a virtual OS inside of your storage device's OS, it is its own OS. It has no knowledge that it's a virtual machine.

I bought a laser printer years ago(Brother brand) and have printed a few hundred pages, I've never had to worry about toner. Ink printers are a total scam and the only reason people buy them is because the initial cost is much cheaper or they don't know the difference between inkjet and laser.

Yeah but who's gonna eat a whole pizza by themselves? They probably had two slices like a normal person and ate the rest the next day.

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If the DNC hadn't shoved Hillary down our throats, Bernie would have certainly won the primary. But on policy the best candidate would have been Andrew Yang.

The DNC would rather lose elections than give us non-establishment politicians.

Imagine if the DNC gave democrats a worthy candidate. Then we wouldn't have to strongarm democrats to vote for democratic candidates.

Doesn't work for me on Jerboa either.

I'd say the American dream exists but the abuse you must take is unimaginable. My family came here with very little and worked horrible minimum wage jobs. I climbed my way up from horrible manual labor jobs, to call center to tech support to engineer. If you have passion and you're dedicated to your craft you'll be well compensated. But it's much more difficult than it should be. For me it took a lot of studying, politicing, and some lost respect for myself. Now I get to complain about my desk job and drink beer at live music bars to forget about work.

You quoted half of the sentence. I think there's enough substance on there to consider that an informed opinion.