Hello, recently I have been looking in a ton of spaces that should be safe spots for me as an object kin. I have found out that even a ton of people have never even thought that objects could be so intimately kinned outside of organic and/or anthropomorphized creatures or things. It's been very isolating to find someone who can understand my identity outside of trying to personify it. It's been diminishing my liking for wanting to even participate in similar spaces because it feels like a problem to just exist. I've been asked if I am trolling before and it's been wearing me down. Can I get some advice and some kind words?

To preface.. For a long time I was incredibly unsure about my sexuality. I was an autistic "cis" woman who absolutely adored gay media (yes; I was a fujoshi) and I felt for a long time that I WAS queer but I didn't know exactly how; I felt like I was taking up space being in queer womens spaces so I seldom participated in them and that led to me never truly exploring my sexuality despite me knowing I only liked men. I always labeled myself as bisexual or on the ace spectrum when I was clearly aware those labels didn't fit me, just because I didn't know how to explain how I felt on the inside.

Now, I am 2+ years on testosterone, I have undergone top surgery and I am going to get my rhinoplasty in the next 6 months for a more masc face. I have never felt more happy in my life. I can actually bare to look at myself in the mirror, I can actually love my body and begin to explore parts of myself that were so ardently locked behind my dysphoria. It's like so many doors have opened for me and I realize that this is who I am, and that even though I am still am fairly new into medically transitioning I could TRULY never see myself in another way.

I love men more passionately now and I can appreciate masculinity more richly. I have never felt gayer in my life. I thank Lou Sullivan for all of his activism work to show that gay and lesbian trans people existed, and I am so happy to be a gay transgender man.

"I don't even know if there was anyone that's ever felt as I do.. how they coped, what they did...how do I find out what someone like me does?” ― Louis Graydon Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

Hello, I am looking to meet some other transmascs and/or FtMs and potentially even make a friend or two. I thought I'd ask some questions to get the ball rolling!

• What is your favorite piece of clothing in your wardrobe that gives you euphoria?
• Can you name one small thing you're looking forward to in your transition?
• What is your favorite animal, mythical creature, or cryptid?

Looking forward to seeing some responses!