[-] meler@hexbear.net 17 points 1 month ago

family shit, ramblingI don't know what I'm supposed to do.

The Christmas zoom call was SO ass. It was horrendous. No one gave a fuck about my name or pronouns. I've written a letter to my family and asked my sibling if it was fair and they said yes. I still don't know if I should send it.

The whole reason I zoomed instead of visited in person was because I didn't want to be trapped there around so many people I despise, with no way of leaving. It's great to know I made the right choice, because not only did I not hear my name basically at all (except for once from my sibling), but my dad was actively an asshole to me. I guess he simply couldn't help it.

I wore my favorite dress, did my nails all nice, had my name on the zoom set to my name and pronouns. I did everything. No one forgot. No one cared.

I find out from my sibling today that while they were there in person, any time my grandma tried to bring anything up about my gender transition, my dad would shut her down by saying "please, let's just have a good day." So it seems like everyone may have been to afraid to ruin my dad's favorite holiday, so I was the sacrificial lamb. "Let's have a good day." Amazing how I didn't have one of those.

Every single bone in my body is telling me never to talk to my dad ever again and just cut ties. I desperately want to be able to. He is an irredeemable asshole. I genuinely hate him. The only thing keeping me from just doing it is the knowledge that my grandma lived with him. Shes 90 years old and if I ever want to see her again in person, I have to put up with the family nonsense.

It's also a thing where I'm scared of cutting off from pretty much the only family I have left, even if they're bad for me.

[-] meler@hexbear.net 20 points 1 month ago

transphobiaExplain to me why my roomies are trying to draw a line between when it's correct to accept trans people and when it's not?

I respect trans people and am an ally, but some people are just doing it for attention

Okay and? Even if that were true who fucking cares?

Some people try to force other people to be trans

Damn I wonder what it's like for people to try to force you to to be a gender you don't identify with. Really must suck tho

[-] meler@hexbear.net 20 points 2 months ago

Wokeness really did a number on me. I went to college a good Christian boy and left as a cute commie girl!!!

[-] meler@hexbear.net 19 points 2 months ago

How. The fuck. Did my legs get to be this cute? I'm wearing jeans rn and I looked down and saw the cutest legs of all time

[-] meler@hexbear.net 26 points 2 months ago

I've moved into the new place!!! I get to sleep in a place of my own omg. I have a rooooooom with a spot for my computer and a windowwwwwww and I get to go for walks like I used to ughfjsoajdiskdbeodnxn

[-] meler@hexbear.net 29 points 2 months ago

Omg I got approved for a place

[-] meler@hexbear.net 18 points 2 months ago

Actually the full story is I turned really fast and felt them moveeeeeeeeeeee

[-] meler@hexbear.net 18 points 2 months ago

wow who knew estrogen would give me boobs

[-] meler@hexbear.net 19 points 3 months ago

it's amazing the power 2 bear site mojis have on how cute I feel when I hit send

[-] meler@hexbear.net 20 points 3 months ago

this girl passed the training for her job today bridget-vibe

the background check is taking a million and a half years to clear though so I'm still not allowed to work yet madeline-sadeline

[-] meler@hexbear.net 21 points 3 months ago

Idk why my post didn't post earlier. But it's so nice not having had to do a "coming out" at this new job. They asked me what my preferred name and pronouns were when I put in my application, and from what I've seen so far, it seems like my name in all of the systems is my preferred name and I only had to use the legal one for, well, legal reasons. I keep being referred to with she/her pronouns in emails and stuff, and it's so nice that I didn't have to ask for it. And no one has been weird in zoom calls yet. I'm being treated completely and entirely as a woman. I don't really know how to describe it, because all of my friends treat me like a woman, but I think the difference is that I had to come out to them. I just got this job, walked in the proverbial (online) doors and from day 1 I'm just a woman. It feels incredible.

[-] meler@hexbear.net 19 points 3 months ago

Holy shit I actually got a job. Good god that was hard but I'll actually have some income so I can buy food and pay rent and not be living off favors like I've been for the past several months.

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