So sorry to hear that you've been struggling with drinking again, I know that's a really tough thing to deal with (I fell off the wagon literally yesterday). I hope that circumstances in your life become such that the drinking no longer feels necessary.
Also hell yeah about the past two years being the best of your life. That's amazing, comrade. I hope the next two are even better.
Doing very, very poorly. Haven't gotten through a day without multiple breakdowns in over a week. I can't even tell anymore if I'm sticking around through a tough situation for someone who really likes me and really needs me, or if I'm letting myself be treated poorly by someone who has realized I get very attached. Two temp jobs have fallen through in the span of the last week. What I thought was the best short story I'd ever written got rejected by the fucking magazine. I fell off the wagon with not drinking last night. Everything feels so fucked and pointless.
Depends on where you get it. Underside of your forearms hurts less than a cat scratch.
Haven't really worked food service but working retail (Costco) made me want to [REDACTED] myself and everyone around me
Thank you. I hope so too. I hope that what is stressing me stops and I can sleep again
I've told her a little but I don't feel I made it clear the degree to which it affects me
Honestly, a conversation is all I want at this point.
The extenuating circumstances are pretty extenuating, but they don't make it any easier to deal with.
It's the strangest feeling though, because when she is around she's so affectionate and sweet, not in the least bit distant, but then she vanishes again. Which is part of why it feels like she must be telling the truth about those circumstances.
So sorry to hear about what you're going through, corgi :( May things look up soon.
on a scale of 1 to this how fucked up over someone are you tonight