kingspooky

really feeling this lately

Haven't really worked food service but working retail (Costco) made me want to [REDACTED] myself and everyone around me

Thank you. I hope so too. I hope that what is stressing me stops and I can sleep again

I appreciate the advice but it's stress/anxiety related. Melatonin will put me to sleep and I'll wake up 3 hours later, just like I have been.

Barely slept last night 🙃 for the 3rd night in a row

We'll see. There are some extenuating circumstances that could be making it worse, but... I don't know, I feel pretty awful rn. Especially considering it isn't something casual. edit: To be a little less cagey, she lives at home with an abusive relative.
the last message in our chat before she vanished was her telling me she loved me more than i understood
and then she disappeared
if thats why she's been gone ill understand

I've told her a little but I don't feel I made it clear the degree to which it affects me

Honestly, a conversation is all I want at this point.

The extenuating circumstances are pretty extenuating, but they don't make it any easier to deal with.
It's the strangest feeling though, because when she is around she's so affectionate and sweet, not in the least bit distant, but then she vanishes again. Which is part of why it feels like she must be telling the truth about those circumstances.

Then you must understand, that as someone who would usually feel the same way, I must be very fond of this person and there must be pretty believable extenuating circumstances for me to want to still be with them after this, right? I can't stress enough that this is the 4th time it's happened.

I don't think it's unreasonable to get worried after 3 days when you're just dating then, right? This isn't me being too clingy?

I'm absurdly clingy and on day 5 of time 4 that she's done this 🙃 I'm pretty fucked up over this tbqh