oh fuck i need to get up but walking is a difficukyt thing to do now

I'm kind of sad that like. I'm gonna have to tie my hair up for the oral surgeon, because my hair looks fucking great today, with it's like curls/waviness really showing. anyways it probably time to like head out and get these wisdom teeth removed

Me earlier. "Oh I'm gonna go read this article so I can finally read it and also clear up my tabs!"

Me now or meow. "now I have even more things to read and even more tabs"

time flies, fuck how is it already monday. my wisdom teeth extraction is tomorrow. and now im suddenly getting anxious despite being okay with it for the last month. not sure why im getting anxious, I'm not gonna be awake for it.

anyways today is prep day. so I probably should prepare some meals later on. assuming if later on today doesn't turn out to be bad like sunday. also I'm feeling a lot better from whatever I caught since I don't really feel sick anymore. so I don't need to reschedule I hope. I don't want to wait another month.

I should also probably go to bed "early" so I'm not sleep deprived when the next day comes. also im really trying not to imagine the worst, as in imagining fighting with my dad. like for example, imagining my dad doing something like not picking up the pain meds after and then getting mad. like nothing has even happen and I'd doubt he would do that. I dunno it's kind of annoying my mind immediately jumps to like things like that.

anyways moderately positive mindset time, kind of. im not really sure how anyone can be positive 100% throughout the day since even when trying to be positive I'm still like negative so I dunno.

sure, you're very cool 😎

oh fuck me. I think that wisdom tooth getting reinfected again or like having another infection? or flaring up? I fucking hope not because I thought the antibiotics got rid of it like a month ago? I just finished brushing my teeth and it was hurting to brush back there again. fuck. I hope it just from the spicy food but I kind of doubt that, it just wishful thinking.

If it getting reinfected I am gonna have to wait like almost a month until I can see the oral surgeon to remove these damned cursed wisdom teeth. just fucking shit. just fuck and fuck this shitty year

why are human teeth so cursed. I had that consult today and now I have to wait like 3-5 more weeks before they can extract those wisdom teeth. at least the appointment is set up I guess. also fucking christ why does it have to be so expensive. also a part of me really doesn't want to do any of this, not because of cost but because this part of me just wants to lay down and decay/not try anymore, so it's fun fighting that side of me.

It's really funny hearing people say this place is mean or whatever since like, this place has been really supportive and nice, like when my mom died or when Im dealing with my dad at times.