Applied for a bunch of contact centre work. I feel like I'm going backwards, but trying to remind myself that it's just so I can afford a bunch of driving lessons and then I can apply for more animal industry roles.
I'm gonna fucking cry.
You're not going backwards cos you've got a goal in mind. That's smart thinking.
Sometimes jobs are just a financial transaction. It’s ok. Be proud of yourself for getting out there.
Short term pain, long term gain. It’ll be worth it!
Just think about it as a means to an end. Once you're on your Ps you're outta there
We're all out here just earning the dollars some days!
Think of it as a stepping stone to getting what you need instead of it as a goal going backwards.
You need the income to get there so it's just all going forwards and progressing towards it.
like the others have said, just keep your eye on the prize
Ol' girls new dietitian approved of the shit I've been doing food-wise so that's a relief. Didn't add anything really so that keeps things easy.
Wrote out a thing for ol' boy as he goes with her to these things, basically weight / diet etc. over time pre / post op. Didn't realise he was just going to print it out and give it to the dietitian. There was a lot of swearng lol.
Audition is on for tomorrow which is awesome! Playing 2nd guitar which is usually pretty fun.
Normally they have a bunch of songs already written and then you get the freedom to add your parts.
Excited!
he's dreaming
His little sweet face 😍
Was up early and had a coffee and muffin from a cafe this morning. Muffin was still warm from being fresh out of the oven. Wining the day already.
Warm baked good and clothes straight from the dryer are two of the best experiences.
overdramatic
So it's been about four hours since I took the meds and I had a psychology appointment. I started crying and couldn't stop myself. I also couldn't really form my words during the appointment and am thinking that's just the crash. My psych thinks the psychiatrist did a bit of a dodgy job taking my history. I think it might just be more that I'm autistic and I don't actually have adhd. If it's just autism, there isn't medication for that. My psychologist is wanting me to get an assessment done by her or another psychologist but that's going to set me so out of pocket. I can't get a review with the psychiatrist this month even though he said if I need assistance within 2-3 weeks, he will speak to me and won't charge me.
This mental health system is fucked, and I'm not even acutely unwell. Or maybe it's just these drugs where don't actually know how they work. It seems like I'm just going to have to think my way into just being able to do shit to survive. Or maybe I just have to live alone and grow some balls.
If the psychologist is suggesting an assessment, go for it. They have knowledge and experience with neurodivergent people and their vibe sense may have picked up that you meet some criteria. Also it’s not either/or, people can have both autism and adhd. Throw in some trauma, depression, difficult family situation etc and it’s not gonna be easy. You are doing so well trying to get to know yourself and look after yourself. It’s not always a smooth road. But it will be worth it.
so many hugs
can I suggest the book "When I Say No I Feel Guilty" , it gives you real examples of difficult family situations and how to say no
because sometimes our difficulties are just a lack of a skill set
I’ve had this phone for 5 years and the battery is starting to die faster… also voice control is randomly activating.
I don’t think I can afford another myself so when this finally becomes unreliable the next one will probably be a basic android from (as the previous one was). And I’ll keep this plugged in purely as a tiny drawing tablet until it dies. Hate planned obsolescence
After three months of procrastination I finally got around to writing an email requesting permission to put in my vegie garden. They are not allowed to say no without good reason, but I also requested permission to put in some permanent plants that they could. Fingers crossed - I believe it would add value to the property and they should say yes, but it's also possible the landlords are vegetation hating idiots, so I just have to wait and see.
Spring will be here soon so it's a good time to get garden beds established - I have lots of cardboard from moving set aside to go down as weed barrier, and will need to get lots of compost & mulch on top. I'm looking forward to having enough space to do large plants like pumpkins without having to train them up a support, and also looking forward to not having everything eaten by possums.
Work has provided soup today for us.
It was nice!
Toe still uncomfortable and a bit sore
Guess I'm resting up all weekend.
I fell off the bike two weeks ago and I think my knee is up to riding again.
It's super annoying because I was on damp wooden boards, knew they'd be slippery so I went slower, and fell anyway. The view was nice next to the lake-thing near home but next time it has rained I'll stick to the road.
Blood taken, now I can finally eat. I ate like it was my last meal before the fasting started last night.
I have come to the realisation that bread and pastry ain't my friends and limiting them really does benefit me.
I had incredible back pain earlier this week and not feeling sluggish because of bread made recovery a lot quicker.
I'll still dabble occasionally but yeah I've had enough of feeling shit.
If you can be fucked with specifics there's the FODMAP routine to test dietary intolerances but it's a bit of a drag, moreso if you're eating with the family.
Nah I can't be fucked. I've done my own experiments. For some reason toast doesn't bother me but "raw" bread does. I feel on top of the world when I don't eat much of it.
I know it's not the butter because I slather that on toast. Pizza makes me feel shit almost immediately and the next day too.
It could be the yeast. Also fresh bakery bread doesn't really bother me either but I am limiting that too.
Commercial yeast is a trigger for my gut. Its used because it's cheap and gives consistent results, not because its good for you. I do make my own sourdough, and can cope with using normal white bread flour for that, and I've found that I can tolerate a little bit of the commercial white stuff if I preload in the day with some sourdough.
All breads? There's always pumpernickel!!!
That was a fun week
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Snake oil with some gun powder mixed into it.
still resting my back, it's 90% better, upper back 100% better, just doing slow gentle house work today and a little gentle garden tidying
then tomorrow it's more errands down the street
I put a big box on it's side in the hallway and the cats are happy playing today 😸it's Ted's secret lair and heaven help anyone who tries to walk past 😼😹
So I took the first dose of ritalin half an hour ago, and my resting HR has been between 85-90. It feels like my heart is beating out of my chest and that was only with half a tablet. I'll see how I go for the rest of the day.
Goodnight all ❤️
Goodnight. No brush on the head tonight
Thanks and hugs Melbacat for the recommendation, I just ordered some vegan meal shakes
this looks like it will be good, I can do this 😸
Great, just found out my internet has single stream issues and I’m potentially going to need to stay home on Monday for an NBN tech.
No wonder I’ve been dropping during online games.
DT wisdom question: Glasses wearers, how do you clean your glasses? I’m relatively new to glasses, just use them for reading. Somehow I always manage to put smudges on them, even if I’m trying to be careful. I’ve used the little cloth they came with, and also lens spray plus cloth. It works kinda ok, but neither is great. I find the cloth annoyingly small, sometimes get my fingers on the lens when I’m trying to clean them. Can I just use a regular larger microfibre?
Edit: Thankyou, so many good options! Will try them all out.
@SituationCake
I learned this from a person whose job it was to clean Panavision lenses, which cost astronomical amounts of money: The problem with the cloth is that any dirt it picks up ends up getting rubbed all over the glasses. This is particularly bad when there's dust that might be abrasive, you're basically sandpapering the lens. The way he showed us was: one lens tissue, one wipe, in the bin.
Unlike a Panavision lens, glasses don't cost as much as reasonable sized inner city apartments, so you can probably get away with using a disposable wipe each session, or if you're worried about the baby seals and shit, a clean cloth each time (I use a clean cotton hanky).
The more care you take making sure that what you're cleaning them with isn't full of grit, the longer they'll stay clear.
@YarraByte
Mum swears by doing them in the sink before the dishes while the water is soapy fresh.
Don't use microfibre - does quite a bit of scratching and NEVER use paper towel. A small spray bottle with 2:1 vinegar/water mix - mist glasses and dry with soft lint free cloth or the cloth they came with. If the glasses don't have a coating, then a gentle dab with hand sanitiser on a tissue works for emergencies. I found that the frame gets way muckier than the actual lenses, so an occasional warm water and dish soap rinse is great for cleaning the frames.
I didn’t grab my groceries in fast enough and some arsehole walked up and stole items off my doorstep
That's fucked up
It’s the area I live in. I’m getting a bit worried about the delivery of the special food Melbcat needs…
I feel guilty about calling the cops but this guy looks like the guy who’s stolen from me a lot. And I get “fancy” foods and delivery due to disability. 😞
You need to get out of there. Easier said than done but that's no way to live. Hugs 🫂
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