I have GAD. In seconds I can go from watching a chill letsplay to an undefinable but horrid-feeling sense of panicked doom for absolutely no reason whatsoever other than apparently my brain hates my existence and randomly sees fit to punish me for it. And this is any average day.
Same, and in addition to that I have action paralysis. When anxiety happens, which is often, I'm unable to act on anything both physically and mentally. I often describe it as someone throwing a crowbar in the gears of my whole being. I just get stuck, unable to move and get out of that mental state. Simple things can take days, weeks or months, hard things just don't happen unless someone is there to help. And what's hard for me is most things, especially leaving my apartment, cleaning etc.
I thought I was going insane before I knew what was happening. It feels like there's something I should be noticing that I'm not. And whatever that thing is, man is it ever important to the brain. Even though it won't tell me what the thing is. Alright then, keep your secrets.
“BAD SHIT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!”
Okay, can you give me a clue?
“BAD SHIT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!”
I could use even a hint, if you can—
“HOLY RAGING BADGERFUCK, “BAD SHIT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!”
Thank you, brain, you’ve been immensely helpful. Truly a brain of all time.
Sigh. Here we fucking go again.
Interestingly, the one being disturbed by the anxiety is the brain, the one complaining about not knowing the reason is also the brain, the one triggering the anxiety in the first place is the brain, and the one with awareness of your entire physiology is the same brain
And the one with the tools to recover from the anxiety?
You'll never believe it, but:
The anxiety of a deer surrounded by wolves, whilst laying in my underwear watching some cartoon in my perfectly safe bedroom
But if that was an accomplishment for you they deserve to be celebrated! I think people challenging themselves in meaningful ways not just flashy attention grabbing ways is arguably more impressive. Another persons success or achievement doesn’t detract from your own
That's a really nice thing to say I like it
Those last things still count!
Right. Dunno why people think those last two things "don't count". The point of this advice is that it scales to where ever you are at.
"Best I can offer is a phone call to my doctor's office.."
So do that :) and be proud of yourself if you're able to and easy on yourself if you don't.
driving period. driving while its dark counts double.
Less people on the road at night
Some people don't seem to understand that anxiety doesn't let you decide what you are and aren't able to cope with. Cliff diving? Done it, love it, would do it again. Small, closed spaces? Don't love it, would do it again if given the opportunity and a good enough reason. Laying in bed with my dog on top of my blanket and gently trapping my arm or leg? I'd rather die.
I don't get to pick my anxieties and anyone asking "but how is that different" gets my standard response: they're different because one of them makes me feel deliriously bad.
I don't even have the time or energy to do things I want to do, I'm not going out of my way to find scary things to do just to do them.
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