Wow, I think I've finally established some kind of regular routine to life. What a fucking year it's been. Looking forward to enjoying the regularness of a new life I worked pretty hard to set up, sober and female. My adhd seems to have settled down a lot now I've cut back on caffiene, no booze and better levels of oestrogen in my bloodstream.
I do aa, play with my cats, make food, do a little exercise and waste time on the internet. I need to start looking for work, but I have very few usable skills which don't pertain the the music industry. My sister's eap extends to immediate family and they do career counselling so I'm calling them on Monday. Jobs victoria also, and then try and get another look into doing one of these carer trainesships. I don't want to have to become a cleaner or dishpig so someone who can identify my strengths would be excellent.
At least I've been active work wise while I've been on leave with all the volunteering. Meh, 15 years of two nights a week for a good wage and now I'll be back to full time to get close to that again. I don't think it will be a bad thing though, all that free time just led me to substance abuse time and again. Being trans has been such a great opportunity for complete re-invention and enabled me to look after and love myself properly for the first time in my life, so I'm gonna be ok. thx for reading, and thanks everyone for following my journey both here and before on reddit. I've felt such wonderful things and made a couple of new friends from the people who've replied and engaged. It even seems like my downvoters have disappeared.