Not tankie, but anti-capitalist at least

I'm going away for a weekend with my right wing friends, who I'm not sure I like anymore. But it's hard when they're your only friends. I've realised I probably can't change their opinions, all I can do is push back if they say something offensive. I really need to make new friends, but when I get into a new friend group eventually we drift apart. This happened to a queer friend group I had, which sucks because I could go clubbing with them, which I don't really do with these friends. Now I go alone although I think I could go clubbing with one or two of these friends if I asked.

This friend group is the only one that stayed. This friend group is very autistic as well, and it is still the only group where I don't feel judged for my autism. So that makes it difficult. I can have fun with them, but get bored with them as well. But tbh, it could also be because of one person in the group I don't like who is the one who makes all the plans, because he and I have different opinions on having fun. He is very controlling as well and if you don't say anything he will decide things for you, which is hard if you're non-confrontational like me. I once went on a two week holiday with him which was hell, in which I decided to never make plans with him where it's just me and him. I can only sort of tolerate him if we're together in a group.

I can vibe more with the other friends, but like I said they're very right wing and very vocal about it. They loudly complain about everything, like my friend who drives a car and is very car brained. He's from a small village and everytime he picks us up by car he complains about the bikes and pedestrians, and thinks his car deserves more right of way. Like my man, you're driving through the city center, what did you expect? Another friend votes for a transphobic party (FvD) even though he's friends with me, a trans woman. It felt like betrayal. I thought that me being trans would slowly make them more progressive, but that doesn't seem to happen. It could be the case that they use it as an excuse, like "it's okay to vote for a transphobic party, I have a trans friend".

Even if I decide to keep this friend group, I really need to get some other friends as well. Because I feel so lonely like I don't have friends, even though I have them. That made me realise I can't really consider them my friends, if they can't get rid of that feeling.

The debut album of Pochonbo Electronic Ensemble. I listened to it, and it sounds great.

I want to get rid of USian tech

You can easily remove them by clicking open those clamps on the sides. So if you see something like this, remove it, rip it and throw it in the trash

What does this mean for leftism in Peru and for Pedro Castillo?

I know most of you celebrate on the 25th, but here in Denmark and the rest of Scandinavia (and probably some other regions) we celebrate on the 24th. So I didn't want us to be excluded, since most christmas wishes will probably be tomorrow.

Merry christmas! God jul!

Under Sukarno I would see West Papua joining Indonesia as an anti-imperialist action, but since Suharto it has become a colony of Indonesia with a lot of economic oppression and racist oppression. Independence is the best option for West Papua right now.

I think I'm going to leave my party BIJ1 before the municipal elections next year, and not after. I've come to the conclusion that BIJ1 is not going to change for the better and it's futile staying a little longer just to try to change some minds. They're not marxist, don't focus on class struggle and intersectionality, while good, shouldn't overshadow socialism. There's too many people in BIJ1 who has a different reason for joining because the party line's interpretation is very broad. Because of those disagreements, they keep fighting about it. I told myself that the fights will slowly stop because the leadership is better able to solve disagreements but what does it matter if the root cause isn't fixed. And because there're so many different groups, the leadership is fighting between themselves as well. Add to that some people in the party who want to ban tankies, which I cannot stop on my own, because the party as a whole isn't marxist.

I think I even regret becoming part of the party. When I joined I wasn't a marxist-leninist yet, and I saw other orgs as irrelevant, but looking back those orgs have lively youth organisations. And that contact with likeminded people with the same age is very important. I think I wouldn't have felt so lonely if I took that step. I can't fully connect with my party members because of the age difference and because I only share a partial worldview with them. But I didn't want to leave the party because of my social anxiety. I didn't want to lose my weak connections with party members to join a party where I don't know anybody. When I am in a group of people of the same age, it reminds me of my school years where I was bullied even if those people are nice. I was afraid I wouldn't build connections and I would be lonely and I would be useless in the party. I didn't want to deal with that so I stayed. And I'm pretty close to the leadership of my local branch so that makes me feel a little useful.

I would probably have been a better communist with more personal growth in a party that is closer to my ideals and which actively educates its members

I'm at least going to vote for a different party in the municipal elections called De Vonk, but for the city borough I'm maybe going to vote for BIJ1 if De Vonk doesn't participate there. When it comes to leaving the party altogether, I hope I can build the courage to do it before then. It would be weird to vote for a party you're not a member of.

Whether that is for example DSA in the USA or BIJ1 in my own country.

I want to leave BIJ1 after the municipal elections but before that I want to try to strengthen ML thoughts in the party and make people more sympathetic to it. How can I do that?

Excluding Crimea, because libs don't see it as Russia