Some of the comrades who saw my posts and comments know where I live, but for those who don't know, I live in one of the worst parts of the Global South.
The country became a US land base right after its founder leader's death, and the current government is speedrunning its collapse. It was always a horrible place to live if you were not one of the ruling class elites (govt officials, landowners, bourgeoisie, and their relatives). And anyone who doesn't fit the “ideal citizen” bill gets brutally oppressed, which is something inherited from the predecessor state. Most of the brilliant minds got murdered because of this politics, and the remaining people became self-centered opportunists.
Combining all these factors, we have got masses who are,
—Protesting the govt and getting brutalized and getting their future ruined (I am one of them),
—Agitators who cry over social media but refuse to help the protesters because either they see themselves as too important or they are justifiably scared of their future,
—Ignorant of the situation because they have seen the previous governments and believe nothing will ever happen,
—Scum of humanity who's profiting off of the decline.
The last two people are, unfortunately, the majority of the people. They have been pushed to those roads by the state and the foreign actors for paving the way for the collapse of the state. Why aren't we educating them? The leftist movements were strong during the 60s and early 70s, but NATO pushed the button, and the state has been cracking down on us like we are a crime syndicate. Btw, the crime rates are at an all-time high because of these factors.
While we are struggling for literal survival, the current govt is selling the country's lands, assets, and even its people. We are dying by natural disasters, drought, unaffordable living standards, murders, drug overdoses, and workplace safety violations; our govt rubs their hands, calculating how to profit off of it. This is literal colonial government behavior, and it consists of dumb village fucks who can't see farther than their noses.
I've tried, comrades; I've really tried for a better future. But with an oppressive regime and its blind followers, that's all I can do. I am tired; I want out, but the West refuses me because I am a “filthy barbarian” while accepting literal baby killers, and AES states are averse to me because I am from the semi-periphery with a comprador government. I feel I am trapped in Purgatory's border with Hell. Not only that, but I don't even feel safe for my life; I might get killed randomly by anything, but I still try to hold on to that strain of hope.