I consider myself trans, and I dont think its a bad thing to outrun or a "permanent mark on my existence" or a "permanent scar" 😌 - and I pass the vast majority of the time, I had the surgeries and years of HRT, I accidently stealth now at work (sometimes it doesnt come up so Ive had coworkers whove known me for years and didnt know I was trans lol).
I like being trans! I would like being a trans (in small letters) woman if I can describe it like that, like its just another part of me. Im a nurse, I went to my alma mater, Im from where Im from, I like nerdy ttrpgs, Im a transgender woman, I like dogs and babies, I can kinda speak french with a horrible mostly Anglo tiny slice parisienne accent, etc.
Anyway, trans just means the doctors and your parents fucked up when they gendered you as a baby and it took longer for you to figure it out yourself.