Like, yeah, money is and will be a problem, I am up to my neck in debt. But I feel like I’ve just been released from prison. I just finished my first year as a civil engineer. These fuckers didn’t like me from the beginning, abusing me with all kinds of undermining, racism, professional negligence. My supervisor, some fuck my age, a nick fuentes type, had been sabotaging me all year, funneling me with dog shit assignments. Corporate culture is a scourge on humanity, this is the devil’s work. Demonic stuff. Lovecraftian without any of the charm. These people are fucking psychotic. There’s a reason that ‘laws of power’ book is so popular, it’s a tome on how to be a sociopath and survive.
They let me go last week. This same ‘supervisor’ texts back today ‘Hey hope you’re doing alright. We have an expense check for you. I could swing by or mail it to you’
Like, ewwwwwwwww, holy fuck no. i know It’s pretty essy to find someone’s address but I’m not going to go out of my way to invite this chud over or validate his feelings. This is ridiculous, I need the money but I also don’t want him rounding up his 
bros and showing up at my apartment with pitchforks. Maybe I’m going crazy but I genuinely see corpos as a different race of people that I’m definitely 100% racist against.
Says a lot about myself that I tried fitting in with the borg, I just wanted to learn engineering and earn a living. I didn’t think I’d have to grovel in front of the head capitalists at the firm and play act like 50% of the time. Am I supposed to be doing a good job, or maneuvering around some boss’ cryptic feelings? And then the hopefuls, the bootlickers. Absolute miscreants jesus christ. Trying to find the next best person to throw under the bus so they can look better? Guess what, it works folks! I tip my hat to this pathetic shit. These people are giddy to get coworkers fired, this is worthy of study via lobotomy. My career might even be over before it began. Took me like 7 years just to get to this position. All fucked because of the three chud gammons I worked with, particularly the Nick Fountain douche.
What was I even thinking being earnest about my job within the halls of capitalism, like even with all that theory. Grade A dumbass, now that is psychotic. It’s almost all my fault entirely, really.
Hey - rough go. Engineering (esp. civil) can be extremely toxic, especially for juniors. I got to spend my first 6-12 months (EE) being sent out doing field service with a man I viscerally wanted to kill. He was such a piece of shit (oddly enough, flat out great at the job), I'd need like a full 24 hr to decompress and not be a fucking asshole to everyone I saw, after a week with the guy. It was fucking horrible.
I know a talented, respected, and DOPE civil engineer, have known her well for...20 years?
She works and lives in Canada, but started in the US. Primarily into bridges lol, but has transitioned to work in somewhat more remote areas on various things (e.g. Canadian Rockies).
Take a breather. I bet that was fucking awful and I'm glad you got out of it.
I've seen you around here enough, though, that I'd 100% be game to put y'all in touch and do what I can to streamline anything whatsoever for ya. DM me if ya wanna take that option at some point, it's open and at your leisure.
You seem already clear on this, but it wasn't you. If you can stick with engineering for a bit and get good at it despite all that, it gets better, because you get legitimately valuable to companies and get to dictate more of your own requirements (a little). But nothing is worth crossing that invisible line, whatever and wherever it may be for each of us.
You did well. Cheers.