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This is actually beautiful and had me tearing up.
Thank you for writing this out, comrade. So far, I just feel joy, but I know from FFS that the long term exhaustion of post op recovery it can wear on you.
I am fortunate to be surrounded by so many amazing trans friends who are all so happy to help me through this.
Yes, this is permanent, and already have never felt more comfortable in my body in the course of my life. Thus far, pain has been pretty minimal, all things considered. Especially now with the catheter out, none is currently needed. I am so fortunate to be able to have gotten this surgery, and mostly covered under insurance as well. Life has just gotten almost universally better since transitioning, and this is a huge milestone in the course of my life.
