It such a surreal moment whenever it comes up whenever I try to reach for my pre voice training mode of speech.(usually as a cute party trick with queer folk)
this last weekend at a queer gathering, I was completely unable to have a sound concept for what I used to sound like pre voice training, and the best I could conjure was basically a woman who smokes cigarettes kind of voice.
Feels like a really good place to be. Voice training was an incredible thing for my inner sense of self and healing.
The further I get along, and I certainly have such a long way to go, the more I feel like whoever I was pre transition integrates into a better sense of self. For the queer joy, just want to emphasize that there are so many fucking challenges that go into transitioning, but it is still the best decision I have made in my life. 
