I do not understand the question
thezeesystem
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I fall between the government won't give me SSI because I'm not disabled enough in there fucking eyes. And being disabled and can't work.
So financially I'm fucked and nothing I can do about it.
Even if I had said It would only be iirc around 800 a month.
It's part of Amerikkka hidden eugenic programs. (Not verified but living with a disability it sure fuckin feels like it)
How do they help you move to another state?
Just a friendly reminder, the IQ system is dated and extremely ableist, scoring a anything on a IQ test means nothing on someone intelligence because smarts comes in so much incredibly different ways that no test can be accurate of how smart someone is.
I feel that. For me it's more of the more I believe I'm not in this world, not anchored to it. More of thoughts I'm just in a simulation. The better my mental health is. The grounding techniques people use to center them selfs into reality cause me extremely bad panic Attacks. I have to believe this isn't real or I can't handle life mentally.
So yes nothing matters where all just space dust floating around, life's meaningless and pointless. So might as well live it up and make the most out of it.
Some games I can't just cheat/hack so it's easier fore with my disabilities, currently only one I can think of is outer wilds where it's completely timed based.
I hate how games say they are so accessible friendly yet are designed to be incredibly difficult. Although I absolutely love it when games let you alter a lot of the game from the start, to make it as easy or hard as you like.
Don't forget one the best parts. Sleep noises for when you need to sleep but your brain won't stop firing.
I personally use sleep as android for my wake up alarm when I really need to get up. Has various options that help me. Like forcing me to get out of bed to scan a QR code to dismiss the alarm. Among other great things.
What's next? Google becoming evil ?
Perhaps it's not procrastinating, but instead it's executive dysfunction. Or not but from someone who has really bad executive dysfunction, that kinda sounds like it.
Perhaps talk to your therapist about that, and perhaps some research as lots of times people with executive dysfunction think it's just procrastination which are two separate things.