goddamn back to smoking weed in the morning before work again. funny thing is it helps with anxiety in the same amount it increases my baseline. whatever. i used to care about work and have a good ethic and all that in the shittiest jobs for the shittiest people and for lousy wages, and now that i have somewhat stable work for not quite as bad but still could be better pay doing something considerably more chill and maybe less explicitly evil i only complain. grass is always greener, sure, but when work is coercive it can't help stink like a raw deal, even if it's the good shit

And just like that a dying neuronal pathway was resurrected and reified. Powerful posting