I don't have a sure ranking of what is the worst thing I've done. Tentatively, I think the worst is when living in my first apartment over a decade ago, I bought traps to poison cockroaches there. I don't think I learned the perception of them as sentient beings at the time. I also think having done catch-and-release fishing during childhood is relatively high, e.g. there were also fish that died after swallowing the hook.

If anyone has doubts, they can say. I'm used to being cross-examined, and know how to speak precisely & carefully. I've been preferring to limit language-communication to public writing online.

My email is just beumuth@gmail.com, though I much prefer the tree-style form of communication like here over email.

My favorite Star Trek character is Seven of Nine, though I haven't fully watched the series.

I'm interested in both meditation & technology. Meditation can be like a spaceship, in that it can give powers like transporting to different places, or contacting relatively 'alien' beings. Though, I think it's possible for technology to induce meditation much more conveniently than e.g. changing lifestyle in order to learn how to meditate.

There's an LGBTQ reading of the film Toy Story (1995) that I'm unsure has been considered. One element is how "to infinity and beyond" references the transfinite numbers; there's allusion to Alan Turing, and AI is a topic.

The HDMI port still works on this Chromebook, despite the built-in screen being unusable. Though, this was supposed to be a temporary while a Linux laptop that was destroyed in violence was being replaced; that Linux laptop that was destroyed was a replacement for another that was destroyed in violence, which was a replacement I paid for from one that was stolen from me, which was a replacement for an old laptop I needed to abandon when entering homelessness. I'm requesting my father/family to replace it, which I think is appropriate. Though, there's a higher issue of an intolerance toward generosity. I'm of the view of so-called Dharmic religions (e.g. Buddhism) that there is an underlying law of karma such that generosity results in karmic merit that guarantees pleasant results. Everything I do in my career I offer freely. Money often seems like virtue training wheels, and it's bothersome to even have to regard. I took vows several years ago to refrain from handling tangible currencies (e.g. cash or cards), and to refrain from entering commercial buildings.

I have a roughly 10ft by 10ft porch attached to a 10ft by 10ft open yard area. Following ethics of abstaining from killing beings & abstaining from destroying plant life has lead to designing the back yard qua ecological refuge/shrine, qua bodhisattva. I'm wanting to request advice & material support regarding some of the modules & micro-modules, as future posts - e.g. lining the small hanging solar-powered bird(/insect) bath with sepum & elfin thyme. More immediately, I really need the Linux laptop replaced and for my bike to be repaired.

I'm ready for non-hostility.

Genocide affects groups & individuals, and doesn't require a total erasure. Bahanna culture is tattered & stained with past & ongoing genocides, as well as mass-destruction of animals. Regarding 'the five precepts' in Buddhism, Bahanna culture seems addicted to killing, stealing, sexual-misconduct, dishonesty, & alcohol. I regard the word 'Bahanna' (etymology: borrowed from Hopi) qua essential gift. There's odd, & there's evil/unskillful.

I'm going to somehow need the laptop replaced; I'm unsure how much the remaining rectangle of screen.will stay (semi-)functional. There is plenty law enforcement in my family. The context is entangled in citizen ethics as well, e.g. I don't think it's necessarily appropriate for law enforcement to attempt to just intervene & resolve things. I'm going to request my father to help replace the laptop for now. Particularly, I need a higher-end Linux laptop; have a four-year degree in programming, and have been on a computer since I was two. Though, I don't want to have to keep being financially dependent on my father. Without having used any violence, the person who was attacking me is now feeling regretful; he's emotionally volatile, the context can be very overwhelming for him. Others also encourage him to be violent or intolerant toward me, and again it isn't abnormal for people to treat me this way in general. In the culture I'm in, people often force/persuade loved ones to attack other loved ones.

I'm being targeted with genocide, such that it can become dangerous just me speaking/being in places. I often report on misconduct in my experience. Because of this, I am requesting permission, because I'm unsure if that's going to be too much for people. I recently read the article "Bisbee Deportation" on Wikipedia, which I think is a part of the context.

There are people & cultures that don't recognize the existence of 'male homosexuality'. This can vary from denying that it exists within humans, within nature, or as a sort of category. There's also those that recognize it as a category, though as something disallowed or punishable. And, there's also those who disprefer the sexuality for other reasons, and are intolerant of it.

My ethnicity, as I've been told, is half Puerto Rican, a quarter Ukrainian, and a quarter English/Scottish. There are those who aren't tolerant 'ethnic mixing', as one example, which I think is influenced by how ethnic category systems can force a sort of divisive choosing here.

I'm trying to get permission/ability to speak here - this violence is in response to me doing so.

No, that isn't what I meant.

This is happening for the neighbors to see, and next to a middle school. The police are generally aware, and often encourage or join in on discriminatory hatred/violence; I don't want to have to call them. I was struck with a pan, and didn't engage in violence myself. The laptop was also struck with a pan, such that only a small rectangle of the screen - perhaps about 20% of the screen renders.

Also, the police often are corrupt here & encourage this sort of violence; it's affronting & unbeneficial having to call them.

I live in Phoenix, and am being threatened, gaslit, & yelled-at in-person while typing this (without responding or engaging).

I don't have access to transportation, and have been trying to get bike repairs.

I was homeless previously, and there was a Navajo man who invited me to visit his place in the Navajo Nation. I've been wanting to go, and have been requesting e.g. help with food while migrating.