Sorry I keep posting about this.
(cw Dysphoria)
Okay I'm feeling way worse than I thought, I want to just curl up in a ball on my bed and cry once I get home but I still have tutoring to do so I can't for another 3.5 hours at least.
I hate that just a bit of facial hair being worse than normal can make me spiral like this. Especially when I was and should be feeling great right now. But instead it's infecting how I feel about myself in general, I can't see the woman I normally do when I look in a reflection, I look at photos that I usually love and feel disgusted about my jaw and other features, and the nails I painted to feel a bit better during work are just making me feel worse.
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Mfw I'm putting on my maid outfit since I'm the only person home this week and wanted to wear something more risquΓ© than usual only to realise this is the second year in a row where I've worn a maid outfit for christmas. π³