Solidarity forever, comrade! Educating yourself on theory is a long road without an end. We will always have new developments to understand and synthesize with marxism. It is at least as important to get into organizing in community with comrades. We learn through the struggle and grow stronger and develop our real-world capacity to resist the forces of capital and build alternatives by doing it.
And you don't need to have mastered ML theory before you hold a sign, go to a party meeting, join a strike line, show up at a protest, work with a community organization, etc. I think a lot of us in the heart of the beast experience some amount of imposter syndrome. Don't let that stop you from starting to work! The world's gonna burn and capital is gonna become increasingly more desperate and incapable of managing the contradictions during its decline. We've got a lot to do, glad to have you on the side of humanity's future.
Still my go to to start deprograming the liberals in my life who have a heart.