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A few weeks after my 16th birthday, I made a new friend at my new school, Steve. Within months we'd become best friends and basically inseparable. Just platonic friends but we did everything together, went to music festivals, had our first foreign holiday together, took drugs together, shared our favourite books, had discussions long into the night, shared our secrets and problems that we'd never tell anyone else. Went through all kinds of difficulties and hardships and loss side by side. He was my best friend for nearly a decade, and at age 25 we finally lost touch. He moved to another city and my health took a turn for the worse. One day it was just the last time we saw each other and now it's been 17 years.

Those 17 years haven't been good for me, with my worsening health, having to give up work and socialising, and just losing all hope of ever having anything worthwhile. But I often thought of Steve and everything we'd shared.

Today i was googling people I'd known and I found a social media page for Steve. He's now married with two kids. It seems crazy to me that this whole time I've been sitting here rotting alone he's been living his best life. He and his wife and kids all look so happy in their pictures. All the photos are of them happily goofing around together with all their friends and family, going on holidays and living life. And I am happy for him, he was always a great friend and decent person who deserves to be happy but it just highlighted to me how empty and pointless my life is. 17 years have passed and what has changed for me? Just everything getting worse.

It's also crazy to me that after such a long and close friendship i didn't even know he was married, much less being invited to the wedding. So strange how you can be such close friends with someone for so long and not even be at their wedding. I was not well enough to go anyway but the not even being invited does hurt.

I don't really know what I hope to achieve with this rant other than I have literally no-one else to talk to, and it's hard and embarrassing living such a pathetic life when everyone I've ever known turned out to be "normal" while I'm now a weird loner shut in who can't even eat without begging for handouts, who never goes anywhere other than hospital appointments and hasn't spoken to anyone face to face other than hospital staff, benefit assessors and shop assistants for 17 years.

EDIT: I'm still creepily stalking Steve's social media and I can't believe this. He now works as a work coach for the DWP - one of those people who makes benefits claimants lives a misery by slave-driving them into unsuitable employment and sanctioning them (stopping their benefits) as punishment. I never thought he'd do a job like this, he used to be a real man of the people, now he's on the opposing side. He always used to want to be an engineer. I wonder what happened.

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Starmer:" The regime in Iran is utterly abhorrent. They have murdered thousands of their own people, brutally crushed dissent."

removed, YOUR government murders thousands of the most vulnerable UK citizens everyday, not least through starvation when you stop disabled peoples' benefits, and through lack of medical care due to the insane difficulty of getting a doctor's appointment and years-long waiting lists. And as for crushing dissent, people get arrested in the UK for saying the wrong thing, and for protesting!

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Most shocking takeaway from the video: food is now so expensive in the UK, that to eat the basic diet the government recommends would cost the poorest fifth of Brits half of their disposable income. It would cost the wealthiest fifth 11% of their disposable income. Meanwhile, farmers are losing money rather than making a profit. All the profit is going to corporations like Nestle. Also a lot of corruption involved in keeping food prices high.

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I dreamt I was shopping in a supermarket when I started having an allergic reaction. I knew I needed to take an antihistamine tablet, but I didn't have any on me. There were some for sale in the shop, I took a packet, but the queues for the tills were so insanely long I knew I didn't have time to wait to pay for them. I asked a member of staff if I could open the packet now and pay afterwards and she said no.

My allergic reaction got worse and worse, so bad I ended up on the floor, suffocating. I begged all the shop staff to just let me open the packet now, pointing out how long the queue was but they all angrily said no. Rachel Reeves, the UK government minister who is always trying to stop disabled people from getting benefits, appeared as a member of staff. She was annoyed by the wheezing and gasping sounds I was making, and leaned down towards me, her face right in front of mine and screamed "SHUT UUUUUP!" Then walked off, leaving me in anaphylactic shock on the floor. I was clearly dying and everyone was just annoyed with me for being a nuisance, and tried to stop me from getting help.

I think it was a metaphor for being disabled/ill in the UK, and the government and society at large trying to stop us from accessing help.

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This is why it angers me when people say "There's so much help available, just ask! THIS is the level of help available! Homeless people, even children on the streets in the middle of winter.

Same thing with food insecurity. Food banks closed, and when they're open only allowing you to go three times every 6 months. The rest of the time you can just starve! BUt jUst aSK fOR heLp!

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Someone needs to investigate this scum, "Lady Victoria Harvey."

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Know your parasites. (thelemmy.club)
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Elon Musk is so rich (lemmygrad.ml)
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Numbers of people living in vans have quadrupled over the past five years.

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"The crisis in NHS dentistry is so bad that a charity set up to run clinics in poorer countries is now spending more time working in the UK."

[-] DisabledAceSocialist@lemmygrad.ml 13 points 2 months ago

Welcome. 🤗

[-] DisabledAceSocialist@lemmygrad.ml 13 points 3 months ago

Well, I didn't know that. Never heard of him before.

[-] DisabledAceSocialist@lemmygrad.ml 12 points 3 months ago

My experience with Christians has been very negative. When my disability benefits were wrongfully stopped, after selling all my possessions I ended up so destitute I couldn't afford food. The local food bank is very time consuming and difficult to access, and often closed. After relying on the food bank for a while I fainted in the street and ended up being diagnosed with multiple nutritional deficiencies. In desperation I turned to Christian organisations. I tried local churches but was very rudely turned away. I tried a huge Christian forum with thousands of members - just asking for help accessing Christian food pantries if there are any - and was insulted and given no help. I was told to "man up and sort your own problems out," told that I shouldn't even get disability benefits in the first place because "that's socialism," and when I told them I was so desperate for food that I had turned to shoplifting, I was told to repent and confess my crimes or I would deservedly go to hell. They would not help me. I got so desperate that I joined an online suicide pact forum, wanting someone to help me take my life (I had tried before an failed, so wanted to make sure it got done properly.) Several people made pacts with me but they always let me down at the last minute. Starving and totally desperate, I offered for sale on the forum the only thing I had left, my prescribed medications. For that, I was banned, but just before I got banned one of the members told me about mutual aid and suggested I try hexbear, (which is also how I came to find lemmy.)

The response from people here couldn't be more different than the Christians. The vast majority of people have been empathetic and unjudgmental and multiple people have helped me out with food and other items I need. Sometimes it can take weeks and multiple posts to get a response, but usually someone eventually comes through. I can't even imagine what I would have done without the help from here. People here have shown more kindness and solidarity than any of the Christians.

[-] DisabledAceSocialist@lemmygrad.ml 13 points 3 months ago

Life is so miserable here I would consider it a blessing to be sent to the gas chamber at this point. I honestly wonder why they don't legalise assisted suicide, they clearly want us dead. It would be kinder than killing us slowly as they do now.

[-] DisabledAceSocialist@lemmygrad.ml 12 points 7 months ago

It took the medical establishment three and a half years to diagnose my cancer. Because they refused to do any tests because I was "too young for it to be anything serious." That whole time I was getting sicker and sicker and being accused of being a hypochondriac. Doctors are idiots.

[-] DisabledAceSocialist@lemmygrad.ml 12 points 9 months ago

Thanks. I'm not going to get better though, I'll be taking cancer and thyroid meds for life and the side effects seem to be degenerative, I'm getting worse all the time. They've already caused me to have a stroke and they say I'm in danger of another. That was a whole thing with the NHS too. After my stroke I had to wait so long for physiotherapy that the damage is permanent. I'll never be able bodied again. Which means I will be dealing with the NHS and all the stress that causes for the rest of my life.

Sorry to hear about your wife. The capitalist society we live in really does make being ill much worse than it needs to be. In fact my biggest worry is always finances. I actually got zero points on my benefit reassessment despite being in active cancer treatment, learning to walk again after the stroke and being left partially sighted by the stroke.

Not just the elderly, the sick and disabled, even children. There have been so many news reports of children starving, even bringing empty lunchboxes to school and pretending to eat because their parents can't afford to feed them and they're ashamed for their classmates to know. Multiple news reports of disabled people starving to death after their benefits were stopped. But somehow, always enough for wars, royalty and all kinds of waste like the time the government wasted £10 billion on useless PPE during covid that had to be thrown away.

Definitely. I've had several refuse to write me letters for my benefit claims, even though I am diagnosed. It would cost them 5 minutes to do. It costs me everything when they don't. They just don't care. And when my current one found out I've been feeding myself by begging for food vouchers on here, she looked at me with utter contempt and said I have to stop doing that. Like OK, I'll just starve then. They really don't care if I'm starving, destitute and homeless. Then she gets angry that her silly "therapy" hasn't cured me.

Thanks. I also got a migraine today from being forced to go in a perfume/bleach smelling room. I hate that place.

I'm not sure. My previous therapist, who I saw at the same place in 2019 (and who was also terrible), admitted she wasn't even qualified yet. If you don't have to be qualified to work as an NHS therapist I don't know whether you have to be licensed.

I thought Ukraine had given up their nukes?

It's bonkers to me that some people have billions while I often go hungry purely due to lack of money. Why can't people see how unnatural this is? Has anyone read the Earth's Children series by Jean Auel? It's about cavepeople, but it's such a prime example of how society should be. No-one owns land, everyone is free to hunt and forage as they see fit. The only things people own are basic things like their clothes and arts and crafts that they make and trade with each other. It would be crazy to them if someone said "This land is now mine, you must pay me 50% of all your arts and crafts if you want to live here, pick the plants here or hunt the animals that live here." And yet, somehow the course of human history has led us to a place where a few have more money than they can spend in a lifetime, while millions starve. Why are we standing for this?

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