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The original was posted on /r/tifu by /u/Throwaway173490 on 2026-07-29 01:16:41+00:00.

Hi reddit, this is my first time posting so if I get something wrong I am very sorry I just need to get this out and maybe get some advice.

I (18 F) have Major Depressive Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, this never excuses any of my actions but I hope it offers some explanation. I got into the honors college at my future college. I am set up live in honors housing and I thought I had completed all honors requirements since I already completed one canvas course this summer and I did many things while applying. Before my depressive episode started this summer I had taken note of all dates of when things needed to be completed by.

During my episode I didn’t have the energy or motivation to do anything except go to my job (I work full time in a service role), do my chores, and do bare minimum social obligations. During this time I did not check my school email, bad move for an incoming college student I know, but I thought I was aware of all dates. Apparently there was an additional honors canvas course I was emailed about, the date of which I am already late for.

I received an email saying I am no longer part of the honors college and that I can apply again next year. I just feel so full of self loathing and I wish I could take all my loser behavior back. I worked so much these past four years to get to this point to be excepted into the honors college only to throw it away because I got depressed again.

Does anyone have any advice or words of wisdom? Is it worth it to reach out to the honors college and explain my situation and see if they will let me complete the course now?

TL;DR: I didn’t check my college email during a depressive episode this summer therefore I missed a mandatory canvas course and received an email saying I am removed from the honors college.

Edit: Thank you everyone so much for your replies, it means so much to me. Especially the comments reminding me to be kind to myself, that is a skill I am definitely still working on and the helpful words from everyone who commented help a lot :)