Cool weather, a nice breeze, no obligations, nothing stressing me, not stuck in a depression, and nothing making loud noises around me.
On Sunday, my partner works and I stay home effing around on whatever nerd shit cause I'm a computer guy. If she works later in the day, we get brunch first and I drink multiple mimosas so I can come home with a pleasant buzz (she drives so that I can do this). When she gets home, we watch movies or tv together and hang out with our awesome kitties.
We got a new kitten, so there have been some good days lately.
Work days, a good day is a leisurely morning (yes today) and getting out in time for yoga (not today) and having a nice light supper (yes today).
Days off, all sorts of ways to have a good day. Read a book, bake bread, draw, lots of sex, go to the beach, sit on the couch and listen to music, go see live music, see a movie, just sit in the outdoors and drink, so many different things can make a good day.
When I can read a lot of content about interesting topics, I consider that day a good one. Reading books and learning about many subjects make me happy. Lately, I've been trying to improve my English. I hope I'm on the right way.
Furthermore, I would prefer not to have digestive problems, but that's quite uncommon.
Unfortunately, most of the days I'm very apathetic, and I don't do anything productive. It might be a negative symptom of schizophrenia.
Im not sure I can have one without financial security. I need to not feel like im going to lose my home and know I will be able to get food and healthcare now and in the future. Society depresses me.
My unsolicited depression doesn't weigh me down, I wake up in time for work, I don't question myself at work, I retain just enough energy to go to the gym and I don't hate myself for being alone when I finally come home. Oh, and I manage to figure out something new in the C programming language, I feel high enough to feel like singing a song, actually singing a song out loud, a friend texts me and asks for my attention. Any one of these and I don't feel miserable. All of them, and I feel good until the next day.
having my existence even acknowledged slightly.
Baseline. I got 8+hrs sleep (and I wasn't in bed for 20hrs to get it). I want to go outside and am not immediately worried that I'm not invisible.
One where I can get through the day without my anxiety spiking. If I can keep that under control, I can manage the rest.
Never been diagnosed with any neurodivergent conditions, but I feel I'm on a few ND spectrums. High functioning but not all the time if that makes any sense. I don't mean to diminish the problems of those who have it worse, I really only can speak to my own. And I've been dealing with it for going on 50 years, so I guess I've gotten a little better over time.
One where when I wake up I have at least a little energy. That my brain is working with me and I can do some baking. When dinner comes to make, I don't feel like curling up into a tiny ball and whining.
I've been there! It gets better friend <3
No obligations and an activity I can hyperfocus on.
One where my boss leaves me the fuck alone
Ugh. Hear that. I had a boss that would take me aside and put me on special projects, then later come out and proclaim, "Drop everything you're working on!" To give me a new, stupider project in front of someone he wanted to impress. Later, "Why isn't that special project done yet?"
i do not believe perfection is an achievable standard, it's more of a theoretical concept.
Perfection means there's no more room to improve, there's absolutely nothing anyone in existence can do to make it better.
That would already require all knowing entity to even determine can anything be done to improve it, that's already impossibility.
So It's possible to spend exponentially more and more resources and effort to get closer and closer to it, but it's impossible to achieve perfection.
"Perfect is the enemy of good"
Now letting go of the pursuit of perfection as it is an impossibility and aiming for good enough.
Meaning most days can actually be good. If there's no significant disruptions to day to day patterns or preplanned activities, the day is already good.
When I see my coworkers and they aren't bitching about each other. I've been applying to a lot of jobs and apartment hunting, I need to get out of my arrangement ASAP, but lack any security. My job can get me into an apartment but I have terrible credit and the rental market in my city is finally popping and studios cost 1k+.
I decided to post gaming videos and I'm thinking of dabbling in OF. I can't afford to finish my CS degree I gave up 3 years ago.If I give up my cat I could relocate easier but he's my best friend.
Tldr: I live in America
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