Yes I agree external conditions can harm you, but it's also true that the only thing you really have control over is yourself, your reactions, your actions, your inner dialogue, and so on. You aren't likely to be able to influence other people or events much.
I can say - if you can make it through a bad time, things do often get better - they did for me. If you are surrounded by toxic people find new people, and also if you are seeing someone for your mental health make sure you tell them what's going on.
Delicate androgynous beauty. Your shoulders are fine, that's dysmorphia. You don't see what others do.
Really, a face that would look good whether boy, girl, or neither, you have nothing to worry about.
I am mom to a trans son. Same sort of situation, he was so pretty as a girl, is very good looking as a dude - I think there is just much less difference than people think. Extreme feminine or masculine features just are not as good looking ever, classic beauty is always somewhere towards the center.
I only planted about 6 seeds and got nearly 100 melons, this was an exceptional year for them. Probably 25% loss because it flooded eventually and of course a few tried climbing and they are too heavy for that. Usually I get maybe 25-30 over the whole season.
They are so sweet that even after it started raining daily they were still great. Such a sturdy variety.
One plant per sq foot I can't imagine. Compact for a watermelon but they still sprawl, and pollination gets better and better through the season, bees were still trying at the end.
Squash bugs, yeah. I haven't lost anything to fungus but do the mid-season spray when I do the annual spray of my citrus trees. Main growing season is not summer! More things grow in winter here. So depending on how hot they need to be, might be able to get them set before the rains. We have days over 70 most all year but lows in Jan/Feb sometimes near freezing, sometimes not - last year a freak double tap freeze killed my spring garden but that is unusual. Left me wishing I had planted some collards.
Worst case I guess it will be next year's trap crop - this year I tried the Natsu Cocoa and oof the bugs loved those, did not get even one. I do love the mini love ones though, so delicious and very enthusiastic about setting fruit.
I would like an app to summon the vultures when there is a dead animal in my yard. Click for vultures.
Wow! Mr. or Ms. Mini Love themsef!
Yes on resistance to fungus - I spray it once, mid-season, with dilute elemental copper and that's all. And yep, almost a hundred fruit in 400 sq feet of garden, I've grown it before but this year just let it take over, it was too dry for okra, which is the usual winner in summer here.
I've been 125 at 5'9", that was my weight after I recovered from disordered eating and until my husband asked me to bulk, so from 20 years old to about 48. Nobody really commented that I was too thin (except husband), I looked slender not skinny skinny, was in shape, worked out. More cardio less weights.
90 lb when having trouble from 16 to 20 - that looked skinny and surely wasn't healthy but I still got my period.
150 now since gaining - aimed for 145, overshot. Still aiming for 145 finally making progress, slowly. People STILL think I am thin. I am not. This is more than I weighed 9 months pregnant and honestly it freaks me out a little. Doctor says it's a healthy weight still though.
ETA - 125 at 5'9" is barely even underweight by BMI. 128 lands in Normal territory.
Isn't that dress covered in fringe? I mean, she's in great shape either way, but fringe all over a dress is bulking.
So jealous. Squash bugs get mine every time. If I retire I will try them again, when I can go out every day and kill them.
A rack of watermelon is so funny because boobs. I vote for that.
Next year also trying piel del sapo but historically every other melon or squash is only a trap crop, and these Mini Love survive - bugs hit them too but they grow so fast still get many (and delicious) melons.
Got near a hundred mini watermelon this year, the very late ones were no good but for a couple months they were glorious. Mini love variety, it was a brutally hot summer and they flourished, I let them take over the whole garden.
Two plants survived being overrun by watermelon, the asparagus and the hong tsoi. I'm sort of resting it until "spring" which is planted around Feb here.
I always do sweet potato in a fabric pot! So much easier to find them at the end of the season and you could amend the soil in the pot.
Nice! Our season ends a lot earlier than now but did well with the Stokes Purple this year.
Very basic scoring this time. One line one x. I was happy to find some "golden whole wheat flour" yesterday.
350g Golden whole wheat flour
650g strong white bread flour
20g sel gris
675g tap water
200g starter made with all purpose white flour and tap water, hydration 100%.
Just mix, rest, stretch and fold 4x at 30 minute intervals. Bulk rise took awhile, maybe 4 hours this time (it varies, one hour to 8 - is a condition not a time). Split and bench rest then shaped, into cloth lined baskets wrapped in plastic bags, overnight in the refrigerator. Baked cold bread in very hot closed pans 20 minutes then open lids and 20 minutes more. 450F.
(Sorry for the mixed measurements - I had a bunch of egg white so had to weigh out 1 egg worth)
35 grams egg white
1 Tbsp guava jelly or guava paste
1 oz good mezcal
1/2 oz over proof reposado tequila
1/2 oz Aperol
3/4 oz lemon juice
ETA I failed to list one step. First: whisk or muddle the jelly and booze to incorporate it.
Shake without ice, then with ice. Just as good as it sounds and so beautiful.
It's not a looker, but tastes great.
2 oz tequila (any)
1 oz lime juice
1 oz creme de cassis
2-3 oz ginger beer (I used 1 oz ginger syrup, 3 oz fizzy water, 2 squirts of fire tincture)
Result of googling "what else can I make with tequila and lime"
Husband is having a Stella, that's the bottle in the background.
He's up to 7.5 lb from under 1 lb when we found him. (From 300 grams of baby to 3.5kg of kitten in only a few months, crazy.)
Here is a "before", the day my kids texted to say they found the source of the meowing I had heard before work. Just a wee handful. Always bold as anything though, he was never afraid of us or our 75lb mutt of a dog.
1 oz barrel strength bourbon
1 oz barrel strength reposado tequila
1 scant oz Aperol with a splash of Campari to make an ounce.
1 oz Amaro Nonino
1 oz grapefruit juice
1 oz lemon juice
Shake together with ice. If you are somewhere it's not still summer, serve up in a chilled coupe. Tart enough for a sugared rim. But it's still hot here, so everything is iced. This is sort of 1.5 servings, I just find it fussy to measure .75 of an ounce. Equal parts is the key.
https://makemeacocktail.com/en/cocktail/9953/banderilla
Equal parts tequila, mezcal, Apricot liqueur and lime, half part Aperol works best IMO, any more Aperol and it gets too sweet.
This is a pantry recipe for me as I keep Giffard Abricot in stock always. You want a good apricot in this, I think passion fruit or peach would be equally delicious but make sure it's made from real fruit. Also can sub Campari for the Aperol if you want a little more bitter.
This was a test-and-adjust drink. I was looking for something with Fernet & Mezcal and everything I saw were stirred very boozy things, I was not in the mood for. I saw one though with cachaca and lime so tried a margarita approach.
Started with these, shaken:
1.5 oz tequila
.75 oz each Fernet and Mezcal
Juice of one lime.
Nope. Too flat, too sour. Added about 1/2 oz Pineapple Amaro, and a squirt of Agave, shook again and THIS is a keeper. I guess Fernet does like sweeter drinks more. This one is balanced and I can taste all the ingredients but they did cocktail into a new taste. I usually don't taste the pineapple in the pineapple Amaro but it's shining in this drink - I may try another Fernet-Mezcal-Pineapple Amaro variation (when I am in the mood for stirred and boozy) as I think those together are the magic here.
