Like the old idea of endomorph, mesomorph, ectomorph, I always leaned ectomorph, and guess you would be mesomorph. I do think there is real body type difference- the midwife said I didn't have an "estrogenic" body type, lol. No T&A. Also just not big even when strong. So it is sort of disorienting, I don't want to harm my bones by getting skinny right now, but lost part of my identity! I feel womanly always but so enjoyed the more androgynous build.

I am here for you! There is so much good country music, what they play on the radio is mostly shit. But like with every other sort of music, what's good is good.

Jason Isbell

Hayes Carll

Tyler Childers

Joshua Ray Walker

Charlie Crockett

Sturgill Simpson

The gay cowboy with the deep voice - Orville Peck

And a few I heard on the Saving Country Music top 25 this year and liked:

Charlie Marie, Mack Geiger, Sam Platts

If they are ladies into ladies - Kacey Musgraves, Waxahatchee, the supergroup album The Highwomen, and all of the members, Charlie Marie has such a voice.

AFA radio guys, Alan Jackson, Allison Krause, Lyle Lovett are good.

ETA - since this whole conversation came from some racist rant - there is a straight line from country to R&B and you can hear it in Charley Crockett's music, Leon Bridges, Carolina Chocolate Drops. Music is all related. You can always find a path from one style to any other style but almost all those paths were laid down by black people first, at least here in the US.

I don't get that, it's hard for me to build mass but cardio just drops my weight so much, even though it's good for appetite. And I'm cold a lot, so whoever postulates that's a slow metabolism, I'm not convinced.

Lifting does distribute my body mass better (well, sort of) because my ass & legs get bigger but arms get a little shape and stronger never big. I'm kind of tall and a lady, it's ever been so. Menopause did give me both hips and boobs, bleah I lost my very skinny build but stuck here at some size where I feel fat and others say I am slim. Normal I guess.

As others have said, it's a backlash against the pill mills, we have overcorrected.

I get migraines occasionally, and have Imitrex shots for them. I love that drug because it is not at all druggy - it leaves me clear headed with no migraine, there is a nauseating unpleasant rush when administered, then it's just like walking back in time, headache fades to nothing.

But a handful of times (like literally 6 times in 30 years) I get status migraine. Imitrex does not avail me, 4 days no food no water I will puke even a spoonful of water.

I used to be able to go to the doctor and get some shots with some opiate and fenergan. They would do one, I would still be puking and crying, they would come back every 20 minutes or so and do another until I was so far away from the pain it wasn't bothering me. Then I could sleep and it worked every time, even though it did not work by killing the pain immediately (painkillers don't work for migraine) the high plus sleep always worked. Maybe $50 -$100 total cost.

But the last two times I got this, the doctor couldn't do that, it was outlawed. They sent me to the emergency room. Cold IV in a cold room, some advil stuff that doesn't work, then send me home still hurting, can't sleep, headache 2 more days but I don't die from dehydration. $1,600 for a worse result.

I understand why they say the opiates don't work for migraine, they don't directly kill the pain. But the previous protocol worked, and with electronic health records, can they not tell this is a very infrequent event for me? I don't even like downers. I just want the headache to break and that was the only protocol that ever worked.

ETA: and it is spotty - when I had surgery to repair my finger, the doctor gave me 50 pills of oxy, he said hands can hurt bad. But mine didn't (and yeah I also have a tolerance for pain) and that many pills seem like enough to cause dependence, WTF? I kept a few for rescue med and tossed the rest.

Huh. I have always liked guys my age, whatever that age is, and always for some reason have been pursued only by guys my age or younger (defining "my age" as a few years in either direction). Will need to see if that holds, but I didn't expect it to still be true at this age so maybe.

Looks wise yeah I think more younger guys look better but OMG when I see a fit guy my age, that strikes me much more.

Mmm lentils, that was our meal today too. Sort of a lentil salad/tabouli mashup, whole wheat grains, lentils, cucumber, tomato, onion & garlic, parsley, lemon, olive oil, feta.

My ex used to say lentils are the food closest to just being dirt, but he liked them.

Long arm of the paw!

Caw! caw! Crows before bros!

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Life of Pi. My kids warned me not to read it, they had to for school. I read fast, it was a slim volume, I thought why not, it will be quick. It was quick but I want that time back. I don't get what anyone likes about it, it's unlikeable.

LSD is the only drug I would do again, if I could. Would love to try micro dosing too.

But my trippiest experience was in a dream, not with psychedelics.

I had a dream that I turned inside out, not in a gross way, but everything that had previously been outside of me WAS me, and only what I had been before was outside of "me". It was so transcendent.

I honestly don't understand the houses going up in my neighborhood - it's getting gentrified and what is being built is so ugly. Who is buying these ugly ass houses for 1.5 MILLION dollars? If that was my budget I'd build something beautiful with a big porch like this picture, but all the "luxury" homes are boxes with big garages in front. I look at them on Zillow and they aren't even pretty on the inside.