Ok let me tell you what I think about life.

Baseline existence would be to be paralyzed and in pain, blind and deaf. There are people in this situation. I do agree that they have it bad - the only thing they are getting out of life is physical existence nothing else. They don't have much to be happy about at all. Some of them manage to, but I couldn't.

You and me though? We can hear, see, taste, touch, have much of our time without constant physical pain. Can read, hear music, dance, eat good food, enjoy a beautiful day, see a cute cat or dog. I just enjoy being physically embodied so much, and appreciate how good I have it.

Specifically though, as you are asking, the outward stuff got better in my early 40s. More money, better relationships, better job, gained some weight (I have mixed feelings about that but do feel physically healthier not underweight). Better emotional regulation, less hot-headed.

If you have some bad friends, find better people. If it's you who are the constant in the bad friendships though, you may need to consider that you may be the problem. Jobs are kinda different, I do think even sort of awful people can be successful in the right professional position.

Anchovies, please.

Yes I agree external conditions can harm you, but it's also true that the only thing you really have control over is yourself, your reactions, your actions, your inner dialogue, and so on. You aren't likely to be able to influence other people or events much.

I can say - if you can make it through a bad time, things do often get better - they did for me. If you are surrounded by toxic people find new people, and also if you are seeing someone for your mental health make sure you tell them what's going on.

Delicate androgynous beauty. Your shoulders are fine, that's dysmorphia. You don't see what others do.

Really, a face that would look good whether boy, girl, or neither, you have nothing to worry about.

I am mom to a trans son. Same sort of situation, he was so pretty as a girl, is very good looking as a dude - I think there is just much less difference than people think. Extreme feminine or masculine features just are not as good looking ever, classic beauty is always somewhere towards the center.

I only planted about 6 seeds and got nearly 100 melons, this was an exceptional year for them. Probably 25% loss because it flooded eventually and of course a few tried climbing and they are too heavy for that. Usually I get maybe 25-30 over the whole season.

They are so sweet that even after it started raining daily they were still great. Such a sturdy variety.

One plant per sq foot I can't imagine. Compact for a watermelon but they still sprawl, and pollination gets better and better through the season, bees were still trying at the end.

Squash bugs, yeah. I haven't lost anything to fungus but do the mid-season spray when I do the annual spray of my citrus trees. Main growing season is not summer! More things grow in winter here. So depending on how hot they need to be, might be able to get them set before the rains. We have days over 70 most all year but lows in Jan/Feb sometimes near freezing, sometimes not - last year a freak double tap freeze killed my spring garden but that is unusual. Left me wishing I had planted some collards.

Worst case I guess it will be next year's trap crop - this year I tried the Natsu Cocoa and oof the bugs loved those, did not get even one. I do love the mini love ones though, so delicious and very enthusiastic about setting fruit.

I would like an app to summon the vultures when there is a dead animal in my yard. Click for vultures.

Wow! Mr. or Ms. Mini Love themsef!

Yes on resistance to fungus - I spray it once, mid-season, with dilute elemental copper and that's all. And yep, almost a hundred fruit in 400 sq feet of garden, I've grown it before but this year just let it take over, it was too dry for okra, which is the usual winner in summer here.

I've been 125 at 5'9", that was my weight after I recovered from disordered eating and until my husband asked me to bulk, so from 20 years old to about 48. Nobody really commented that I was too thin (except husband), I looked slender not skinny skinny, was in shape, worked out. More cardio less weights.

90 lb when having trouble from 16 to 20 - that looked skinny and surely wasn't healthy but I still got my period.

150 now since gaining - aimed for 145, overshot. Still aiming for 145 finally making progress, slowly. People STILL think I am thin. I am not. This is more than I weighed 9 months pregnant and honestly it freaks me out a little. Doctor says it's a healthy weight still though.

ETA - 125 at 5'9" is barely even underweight by BMI. 128 lands in Normal territory.

Isn't that dress covered in fringe? I mean, she's in great shape either way, but fringe all over a dress is bulking.

So jealous. Squash bugs get mine every time. If I retire I will try them again, when I can go out every day and kill them.

A rack of watermelon is so funny because boobs. I vote for that.

Next year also trying piel del sapo but historically every other melon or squash is only a trap crop, and these Mini Love survive - bugs hit them too but they grow so fast still get many (and delicious) melons.