Hexbear users will trash me for it, but honestly who cares what they think.

Yeah it's not very materialist of me but one must do whatever it takes to not fall into a pit of oblivion.

For the most part, consider me out of the "fight"

Maybe I could be trashed for this too because it's too idealist or whatever, but part of the fight really is just loving and being loved. The enemy is anti-love, anti-human, anti-life, and anything to counteract that is an act of resistance. To spread love and peace and joy in your life to those around you. With the 'butterfly effect', who knows how that could ripple out? Even in the smallest ways it matters on some mysterious cosmic scale. Due to various circumstances of life, like disability for example, we can't always be the ones fighting on the front lines. All I can do is love wherever I can, so that's what I'm going to do. I really do believe even the tiniest spark of love matters in the face of the globally-spanning demon god of Capital, whose Trauma Machine attempts to smother us all in a blanket of sorrow.

Humans are animals and they have about the same control over their emotions and desires as the average dog.

There's nothing to learn because there's nothing deeper than base unconscious desire. The self is merely the mental organ that justifies those desires and actions to the outside in order to form a cohesive personal narrative.

I disagree. This is learned behavior. It's part of the cycle of violence that we all live with and all perpetuate.

Bulling has existed in every culture regardless of boundary, economic system, religion, and race. It is a fundamental human behavior. It is not tied to capitalism or even civilization. Compliance and conformity within group dynamics is as instinctual as eye contact and facial expressions.

We are a collective species. The only reason you and are are sitting at a fucking computer sharing ideas instantaneously through the internet is because humanity collectively worked together for the shared interests of everyone.

We are a tribal species. The collectivist merely extends the tribe beyond family, country, race, and religion. Even the most collectivist person subconsciously rates the ugly and neurodiverse lower than the beautiful and charismatic. The idea of human that most neurotypicals have excludes me by default. It's analogous to public buildings that still don't have actual infrastructure to support disabled folk. You can say "It's for the community collectively" but in reality it was made with a certain person in mind.

We are not evil and selfish. It is a learned behavior. It is a behavior we can un-learn. It is not inherent to our species.

Humans aren't evil or selfish, I never said that. They are tribal animals with no greater control over their behavior than any other animal. People like to think that their thoughts and feelings are their own so we must be in control of ourselves. Meanwhile, pretty much every facet of the self is determined by subconscious urges and desires filtered through the brain to justify itself to an imagined outside group.

Can't wait 'till I finally die so I don't have to deal with any of this shit anymore

this sounds an awful lot like depression. i struggled with it for 15 years before i finally spoke to a therapist and a psychiatrist about it and three years later i feel so much better that i'm basically a completely different person. get help if you can, please