When I saw the dvd, I noticed the white spots on the disc. I tried to make the spots look visible as possible

I was sleeping in the middle of the night until I woke up overheating and my intrusive thoughts rushing through my mind and doing things like:

• Saying Its the reason I love music and thats why its important.
• I should push a long thick needle in through my eye socket, impale my brain, and end my life. *The only way to be happy is to kill myself
• I will die suffering under capitalism
• gaslighting me into thinking I don't like music.
• something about bananas
• I will never be happy
• etc.

They were so fast and rapid I couldn't even counter act the claims. Right now my brain mellowed out and the intrusive thoughts are more easier to fight now. And I am feeling like im in an alternate reality

I read a few articles in the magazine and goddamn they are bad. And since I bought the magazine because I thought the cover was hilarious, I could possibly post what is inside. Should i?

I saw it in my city's Barnes and Noble, and I skimmed the first few pages and it seemed pro-China and acknowledging it isn't a utopia nor a hellscape. Is it a good book?