What about freedom for Donbas, or Crimea? Are they allowed self determination or not because clearly those regions want absolutely nothing to do with the well documented Nazi infested Kiev regime?
Or North Korea? Do you think it would be better if the western occupied government that has turned the south into a fascist dystopia would be better? Do you truly trust what the west says about the DPRK?
My grandfather fought in the Korean war and I know exactly what we did to them, I cannot in good conscience blame them for their siege mentality, especially since the Korean war never really ended.
Look at Japan, they were "westernized" as well and look how that turned out.
Or how about those "pro democracy" protests in Hong Kong where people were waving British, American, and a disturbing number of Trump flags.
And since you mentioned Tibet (should probably try to at least spell it right). Some 80% of Tibetan people speak their native language still compared to less than 10% of indigenous people in America.
Would you rather Tibet still be a monarchist slave state? Would you rather women in China still be forced to engage in foot binding?
Western anarchists have a very severe issue of chauvinism that really really needs to be addressed and called out at every turn.
I had to talk a friend back from taking his own life and I just want to hug you. Whatever you do is not up to me but I read your entire post and I would not want to lose a comrade like you.
I suffer and have suffered in many of the same ways and the community I have found here is the primary reason I am still alive.
I am not you and I won't try to tell you what to do but I will say that even though I have no idea who you are or if I know you or not I would be saddened to lose another one.
This also leads me to believe your mind is not entirely made up and you are welcome to dm me any time, I just won't be able to respond until after 6pm pacific time except on weekends when I am mostly around all day.