Sounds to me like you just need to relax your own expectations and examine why you play those games. I started playing PUBG with friends this year and had a lot of fun. But i'm not really playing for the win. Of course we are trying to win, but the enjoyment of the game and the time we spend is just as important. A game where we try something stupid and die laughing is just as much fun as getting a win. One of my mates sometimes rages when he dies to what he considers to be bullshit but for me, I just shrug, and queue for the next game and start over. I enjoy the act of playing the game so why should i care if i have to start over?