Anyone feeling like this once in a while?

I'm filled with such thoughts at least once a day if they are not repressed by distractors, and it's taking somewhat of a toll on my mental health. The distractors that is. They take me away not just from remembering but also from other tasks I should be doing, essentially freezing me or slowing me down to a snails pace.

Missing those feelings long gone by with my memories constantly tormenting me about a time that wasn't even that good, but a time I've felt loved. I'm used to them, but I don't know how long I can go with that. It's hard to work alone and it's painful to reminisce.