::: spoiler sex/discussion of horny/discussion of sexuality
So, prog is supposed to be the horny hormone. But since going off of it I just, I mean, I cant stop myself, I'm grabbing the wand every evening. I am yearning like crazy and the horny is patently E horny far more so than before and its a lot easier to have a nondysphoric time (at least when I'm on my own, haven't had sex with my gf or had any hookups or anything in a few months so idk how it is with others). And like idk why but its more emotional, I'm not even fantasizing about sex, I'm fantasizing about like, holding hands and tender kisses on the cheek. Its really nice and a marked change in how ive experienced my sexuality. Normally its a lot less yearny/wholesome and more uh heavy. I wonder if the shift is hormonal only or if its related to other things too?
I'll keep the scrip, accumulate prog and have a stock of it. But I think no prog for me for now. Or maybe some kind of cycling of it idk.