I've lurked these threads a little before coming out here, but you sound like you've made more progress than you give yourself credit for. You've been on HRT for almost a year; you're dressing femme in public (even if you boymode a lot for survival); hell, even buying women's clothes takes guts; you've come out to your asshole friends even though they're assholes. All while living in a red state!

Maybe it's because I only admitted to myself a month or so ago and repressed so deeply for three decades that I never even experimented with my gender presentation, but what you've done so far sounds like so fucking much. You've got this.