Being alive as a human means:

• losing health while you grow up;
• Witnessing the death of your friends and family members depending on how young you are;
• Suffering in your own unique way, that you can't communicate or explain properly.

It feels currently like a losing bet for any human to live beyond teenage years.

I wish next years pass as quick as possible, to finish before I feel their existence.

To sink in the void which won't be cruel or happy, Just peaceful.