The wild part is that I'm not even 40 yet.

And, I am literally autistic, struggled with socializing a fair bit in middle and high school, and then forced myself to learn social skills in college, in part through going to bars and learning how to be a wingman and such.

Like... what I have described is the 101 stuff, lol.

Maybe I'm just... too good at masking, or something? I dunno anymore.